First off, let me preface what I'm about to say by apologizing.
For everything. For ruining your trust in me. For involving myself in things that legitimately made no sense and appeared to be acts of self-sabotage. I shouldn't have done those things. So, I'm sorry for that.
And most importantly, for making you all think I was in this for clout, for attention, for emotional satisfaction or validation.
Getting involved directly in those leaks and discourse I had no place being in. Pursuing things like a girl and making that a public thing as if I were covering a game.
I took advantage of your trust in me over the past year and I personally let you all down.
And for that I apologize. I will do better. But I wanted to pretend I didn't affect what was a major part of my life, and for that I want to apologize. I felt really bad.
I don't know what got into me. I just remember many of my friends trying to talk sense into me. They'd say "Mystic, I don't know about that, man. You should get some help." And I'd tell them I knew what I was doing. That I was on the way towards my goals. I don't know what started this spiral, honestly.
Was it the constant overtime? The manic depression I pretended didn't exist, even as you all saw through the facade? Either way, I'm solely responsible for what I did when I made those tweets. I just wish I knew why I did. I truly had no ill intentions. I didn't even know what I was doing.
Either way, I'm sorry to the partners, colleagues and friends I've let down. The messages I never got back to and lead people to feeling ignored. The things I said, potentially including this thread, which were bad ideas. And for being so personal.
In my attempts to reach out and try to unify people towards their feelings by being a more personal figure, it only made it seem as if I was self-important, egotistical, and at worst, attention seeking or a clout chaser. I'm truly sorry. I say that with no passive aggression.
And that's basically all I wanted to say. Sorry for letting you down time and time again, Era. Now I have nobody. Guess I have to do better, huh?
I have no idea if this thread is really okay for this board. Never done this before, nor am I important enough to where everyone will understand what is being discussed.
For everything. For ruining your trust in me. For involving myself in things that legitimately made no sense and appeared to be acts of self-sabotage. I shouldn't have done those things. So, I'm sorry for that.
And most importantly, for making you all think I was in this for clout, for attention, for emotional satisfaction or validation.
Getting involved directly in those leaks and discourse I had no place being in. Pursuing things like a girl and making that a public thing as if I were covering a game.
I took advantage of your trust in me over the past year and I personally let you all down.
And for that I apologize. I will do better. But I wanted to pretend I didn't affect what was a major part of my life, and for that I want to apologize. I felt really bad.
I don't know what got into me. I just remember many of my friends trying to talk sense into me. They'd say "Mystic, I don't know about that, man. You should get some help." And I'd tell them I knew what I was doing. That I was on the way towards my goals. I don't know what started this spiral, honestly.
Was it the constant overtime? The manic depression I pretended didn't exist, even as you all saw through the facade? Either way, I'm solely responsible for what I did when I made those tweets. I just wish I knew why I did. I truly had no ill intentions. I didn't even know what I was doing.
Either way, I'm sorry to the partners, colleagues and friends I've let down. The messages I never got back to and lead people to feeling ignored. The things I said, potentially including this thread, which were bad ideas. And for being so personal.
In my attempts to reach out and try to unify people towards their feelings by being a more personal figure, it only made it seem as if I was self-important, egotistical, and at worst, attention seeking or a clout chaser. I'm truly sorry. I say that with no passive aggression.
And that's basically all I wanted to say. Sorry for letting you down time and time again, Era. Now I have nobody. Guess I have to do better, huh?
I have no idea if this thread is really okay for this board. Never done this before, nor am I important enough to where everyone will understand what is being discussed.
