This past week was an absolute thrill for me. I went to some incredibly beautiful places here in Northern Michigan, mostly on the edge of lower peninsula and parts of upper peninsula. I had so much fun, possibly more than I've ever had or ever will, did lots of activities, some that I had never done before. For a brief moment, I could pretend that all my problems had vanished and I was in a place completely far removed from anything that reminded me of home and all the emotional baggage along with it. Unfortunately, it was short lived, even though almost two weeks is way more than the average vacation time most will get.
The vacation ultimately did nothing for my mental state because absolutely nothing had changed. I had to deal with the same bullshit I had been dealing with before I went on the vacation. It felt exactly like waking up from a utopian dream, but somehow it made me feel worse. It made me realize that there simply is no escape from all the issues in your life. Video games, movies and other media is just a really good way to pass time and occupy ourselves until we die and nothing we ever did matters anymore.
The vacation ultimately did nothing for my mental state because absolutely nothing had changed. I had to deal with the same bullshit I had been dealing with before I went on the vacation. It felt exactly like waking up from a utopian dream, but somehow it made me feel worse. It made me realize that there simply is no escape from all the issues in your life. Video games, movies and other media is just a really good way to pass time and occupy ourselves until we die and nothing we ever did matters anymore.
