Hi folks,
I'm Luna and I am an autistic white queer trans woman with several mental illnesses.
This past year has been pretty difficult for us all, and I have seen a lot of discussions about the representation of minorities, which is not always easy to read through. While it is good to see that we are having discussions on how to represent instead of why (even though it often feels that the majority tells us how to feel but that's a whole other topic), I sometimes feel we lose the sense of why we should care about it after all.
So I wanted to make a thread about how a diverse character or developer or a scene or whatever else has made us feel better. Everyone of us has a story about something like that.
I have a three simple rules for this
Samantha and Yolanda in Gone Home
When Gone Home came out I was just in the process of accepting my identity of being a queer woman, especially a sapphic woman.
I heard so many positive things about this game, and everyone seemed to agree that I should play it without knowing anything about it. So I avoided everything that had to do with the game and waited for when I could afford it. Eventually I did, it was probably half a year or even a year later, I was about 17. I just came out to my family for being a trans girl and due to my depression I had to leave school to recover.
So I had a lot of time and not many friends, especially queer ones. The ones I had lived far far away.
So when I finally bought it, I was excited. I love stories, I love experimental story telling especially.
And wow did it hit me right in the guts. I cried my heart out.
I saw a girl that was so much into this other girl that they decided to run away to be happy. That was the most punk rock thing I have ever seen. I wanted to be this girl. I wanted to fall in love with this other girl and run away. Leaving everything behind and just being yourself.
I couldn't be myself back then, people around me just started to accept that I was a woman to begin with, let alone a woman that loves other women. Having seen that story made me realize how much I am like that.
How much I love being a queer woman.
After I dealt with the feels of this game. I of course showed it to everyone I knew. One story will stick with me forever though. I gave my brother access to my steam account so he could play it. He decided to play it with his girlfriend, cause it was a short game.
After they finished she got back to me and told me how much she thinks this story sucked. She went on this whole rant about how she thinks it's horrible that she left school for this girl.
I was devastated at first. I mean I understood what she meant but it made me feel bad for liking this story so much. Was I wrong with my feelings. Oh god were my feeling about these bad? Did that mean that me being a wlw is bad? I had no idea what to think.
So I decided to play through it again. If it was this bad I would notice it this time surely.
But when I reached the ending again, the tears started rolling down my face again. This made it clear for me, I wasn't wrong. Me being a wlw is good. It was my brothers girlfriend who didn't understand that the story was about queer women that decided to be themselves and not let other people decide the feelings for them.
I'm Luna and I am an autistic white queer trans woman with several mental illnesses.
This past year has been pretty difficult for us all, and I have seen a lot of discussions about the representation of minorities, which is not always easy to read through. While it is good to see that we are having discussions on how to represent instead of why (even though it often feels that the majority tells us how to feel but that's a whole other topic), I sometimes feel we lose the sense of why we should care about it after all.
So I wanted to make a thread about how a diverse character or developer or a scene or whatever else has made us feel better. Everyone of us has a story about something like that.
I have a three simple rules for this
- [mod edit] We are tweaking the OP's rules a bit to make clear that no one is excluded from participation here. We believe in open discussion and a united community.
- The takeaway has to be positive. You are allowed to be critical but in the end it should show why we need more diversity in video games!
- DON'T discredit someone's representation just because you see it differently, or it is not "canon". Sometimes we see ourselves in stuff that isn't exactly representation, or the artist has denied it.
Samantha and Yolanda in Gone Home
When Gone Home came out I was just in the process of accepting my identity of being a queer woman, especially a sapphic woman.
I heard so many positive things about this game, and everyone seemed to agree that I should play it without knowing anything about it. So I avoided everything that had to do with the game and waited for when I could afford it. Eventually I did, it was probably half a year or even a year later, I was about 17. I just came out to my family for being a trans girl and due to my depression I had to leave school to recover.
So I had a lot of time and not many friends, especially queer ones. The ones I had lived far far away.
So when I finally bought it, I was excited. I love stories, I love experimental story telling especially.
And wow did it hit me right in the guts. I cried my heart out.
I saw a girl that was so much into this other girl that they decided to run away to be happy. That was the most punk rock thing I have ever seen. I wanted to be this girl. I wanted to fall in love with this other girl and run away. Leaving everything behind and just being yourself.
I couldn't be myself back then, people around me just started to accept that I was a woman to begin with, let alone a woman that loves other women. Having seen that story made me realize how much I am like that.
How much I love being a queer woman.
After I dealt with the feels of this game. I of course showed it to everyone I knew. One story will stick with me forever though. I gave my brother access to my steam account so he could play it. He decided to play it with his girlfriend, cause it was a short game.
After they finished she got back to me and told me how much she thinks this story sucked. She went on this whole rant about how she thinks it's horrible that she left school for this girl.
I was devastated at first. I mean I understood what she meant but it made me feel bad for liking this story so much. Was I wrong with my feelings. Oh god were my feeling about these bad? Did that mean that me being a wlw is bad? I had no idea what to think.
So I decided to play through it again. If it was this bad I would notice it this time surely.
But when I reached the ending again, the tears started rolling down my face again. This made it clear for me, I wasn't wrong. Me being a wlw is good. It was my brothers girlfriend who didn't understand that the story was about queer women that decided to be themselves and not let other people decide the feelings for them.
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