Late reply, but I told her how I felt and it's been a bit of a relief. I told her after we slept together that day, and she told me she felt this way a really long time. I asked her, "how long?" And she was too afraid to answer so I dropped it and kissed her immediately. Then we cuddled for a little while.
So from there things were good, but lately her job seems to be straining her emotionally and physically. She's a night shift ICU nurse, and just started in January so she's still kind of fresh on the scene. I feel like I've been emotionally supporting her quite well, and I'm a great listener. But all she seems to do is sleep a ton and she becomes very distant when we're apart, and often apologizes for it but I assure her that I understand why it happens. Yet when we're around each other things feel at their best, and we make a lot of our plans when we're together. I can almost always get her to laugh when she's down. She asked me the other day, "do you want to go somewhere on your birthday?" Which is the 7th of July, and I thought that was sweet of her, and said sure. But once she gets on shift she gets kind of distant. I try not to take it personal, but it's new for me.
I'm trying to give her space when needed (purely based off assumption), we did talk about this. But I'm not sure if she's just waiting for me to ask her out somewhere again. She used to initiate a lot of our interactions when we are apart, but now she just sends me stuff on Instagram. I could be over thinking this, since she almost always says yes to going out if she's available. Hell, the day before yesterday during our date, she wanted to go to the movies again Saturday night but I said, "aren't you seeing Solo with your family on Saturday? You'd be seeing two movies in a day haha." I'm a dumb fuck lol.
I know I make her happy, but outside our relationship I feel like she's still working on her own personal happiness (I am too). But I often wonder if this type of communication is normal? We have a 10yr history so it's hard to guage things.