I think I love powderkegs and minefields way too much for my own good.
I need a bit of advice on post-dating shit.
So I've alluded to it a page or so back, I was getting close to someone who suffers from Anxiety. It kind of grew from me taking care of her, and listening to her issues whenever she needed to step out after something had triggered her fears.
I guess that worked for a while, and I really had no romantic intentions or thoughts about her, besides her being pretty attractive. Eventually she pulled us on an emotional level by telling me to cut out my flirting unless I actually mean it, and we kind of went from there.
Given that I had little to no experience on handling people with Anxiety, let's just say the romantic level opened an entirely different can of worms, and any and all romantic advances of any sort started to be triggers for her anxiety and made her feel pressured.
Long story short, after a few weeks of back and forth, eventually I started to feel like we'd only be really spending time together if there's a problem I needed to help fix, which had gradually also become harder, because she started seeing anything that wasn't 100% on her side as me being against her, resulting in arguments, instead of the usual dynamic we used to have. It turned so bad, that she'll take things I say, spin them around, and turns them into a completely different thing that makes it look like I'm attacking her.
She also seems to be obsessed with my ex, who I only brought up very sparingly when talking about past experiences, shit like "Maybe she wasn't so bad" has already been dropped.
Long story short, we had an argument about the aforementioned issue with me feeling like I'm only a security blanket and not much more, which I blubbered out at an especially bad time. It devolved into namecalling, completely misunderstanding what I feel for her, and misconstruing everything into me lying to her about my feelings - with all bridges burned from her side.
This would be a cut and dry "okay wow, both of you fucked up, move on" kind of deal, but we're both in a team-environment, where I'm forced to be around her without much of a choice to the contrary. I've already considered leaving, but that's not going to work out, because I'm actually in a power position, and have been in it for five years. There's also the option of her leaving, but I neither want that, nor would ever enforce it, why should I, when it's about two people not getting along properly?
I'm currently taking a break from the environment, to work on my own feelings, because, to be honest, I was hurt rather badly by all this shit going down, especially the misconceptions and misconstrued issues. It helps me get my own shit together, and actually think about what I'm going to have to say to get this back in check.
Friends tell me, the chance that she'll initiate contact is still there, but now, three days later, I really, really doubt that's going to happen.
WTF do I do from here, other than slapping myself in the head for getting into this situation to begin with?