Cracking jokes to hide the fact that you're seconds away from breaking down?
i guess i figured it was decapitation, but it could have been plain-ol' blunt force trauma.I was Rachel again, the human Rachel, alive, unhurt. I could have bounded up and gone off to the mall to shop. But I didn't kid myself. I didn't hope.
I spit the snake out.
I was surrounded on all sides. I was only a weak human girl now. The polar bear loomed over me, his strength the equal of my own grizzly, but now I was just me, just Rachel.
I could see the viewscreen. I could see my best friend Cassie. Jake. Marco, funny Marco. Ax.
He had morphed. He was his human self once more. He'd done that for me. And because he was crying. I understood. Humans cry, hawks don't.
"I love you," I said to the screen.
And oh, god, how could so much regret and so much sweetness and so much sadness all be present in that single moment. I was already dead and missing my unlived life. I was already dead and Tobias was mourning.
I tried to smile. For him.
The polar bear said, < You fight well,human.>
Then he killed me with a single blow.
He came to me. The Ellmist.
The puppet master came to watch my final act. It figured. He was in his saintly old man guise. As fake as everything else about him. The all-powerful weakling. The mighty manipulator.
"You," I said accusingly.
"Who are you?" I demanded. "Who are you to play games with us? You appear, you disappear, you use us, who are you, what are you?"
And then,for what seemed like a very long time, the Ellimist told me. I saw. I understood.
But I also knew he would not save me. That he couldn't under the arcane rules of his millenia-long war with Crayak.
The Ellimist was there to honor me, and I guess that was nice of him. Wasn't going to help me much.
I wanted so much to live. I wanted so much to stay and not leave. In a moment, no answer would matter to me, but just the same, I wanted to know what I guess any dying person wants to know.
"Answer this, Ellimist: Did I ... did I make a difference? My life, and my...my death...was I worth it? Did my life really matter?"
"Yes," he said. "You were brave. You were strong. You were good. You mattered."
"Yeah. Okay, then. Okay, then."
I wondered if -
The human was silent. No begging, no pleading for life. At the end, acceptance came even to this strong, turbulent spirit.
“You said I could ask one more question.”
“I can’t ask if we win, I can’t ask if it will all turn out okay.”
“I don’t know those answers.”
“Okay, then answer this, Ellimist: Did I…did I make a difference? My life, and my…my death…was I worth it? Did my life really matter?”
“Yes. You were brave. You were strong. You were good. You mattered.”
“Yeah. Okay, then. Okay, then.”
A small strand of space-time went dark and coiled into nothingness.
the ellimist chronicles was too weird for me in 2000, but that ending burrowed deep into my head. that final line was something i conflated with #54 due to the repetition of the conversation and what a strong an image it creates.
That has to be the first episode (unless it was a two parter). That is Visser Three morphing into a creature and devouring Elfangor in the first book.
This is the same book where Marco makes a plan to toss his mother off a cliff.People don't understand the word ruthless. They think it means "mean."
It's not about being mean. It's about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from A to B. The line that goes from motive to means. Beginning to end.
It's about seeing that bright, clear line and not caring about anything but the beautiful fact that you can see the solution. Not caring about anything else but the perfection of it.
That's what had happened. I saw the way to take both Vissers down. And that's all that mattered.
But I wasn't going to explain all that. Other people's pity just messes with the straight line. Other people's pity makes you think things you can't think about when you are seeing the line.
Just watched the clip on Youtube thanks, god damn that was kinda unsettling. It's no wonder my mom didn't want me watching it lol. Still did though.
The book was worse. In that passage, a piece of Elfangor falls out of Visser Three's mouth and some taxxons swarm over it. When Visser Three de-morphs he says something to the effect of "nothing like a good meal" and his controllers laugh.
Aw shit. I forgot about these. There were a ton of different ones that I used to read all the time, and then Harry Potter came out and that was all I read anymore.
That's what? $200 for the whole series?They do have them on Kindle for about $4 each:
The thing I tell people about Animorphs is that they're really well written kids books that delve into subject matter that kids books don't usually touch and handles them with aplomb.
I remember that. They had a preview in the back of one of the animorphs books. I bought the book on the basis of the card game elemnt only to find out it was a one time thing.
It has been mentioned here that you can get books cheap on Kindle. If you prefer audiobooks, they just started coming out this year. I started listening to the first book this week and other than a couple sections that feel written for kids, they are really good.