I'm still with the company that trained me (office administrator). Always liked it there, especially some coworkers (what is very important to me) and was fine with work.
But it has always been stressful, even tended to get worse than better, and I never really liked the huge part of customer service. (It's a bit like a call center in this regard.) Over time I was doing a bit more accounting and silent paperwork, what I really prefer.
Things were processing, while suddenly they decided to move the whole company into a different part of the town, what not even doubles my commute (now an hour long), I also have to take a ferry along the way, which doesn't come every 5 minutes like a subway. I had a long commute during my training already and moved as soon as possible afterwards, so I know how my quality of life improved and now worsened again. (Of course you can have a way longer commute etc pp. But for me, it's simply too long.)
While I had thought of leaving some times before, it was still a huge step for me, to actually start looking. Did it every now and then since summer, nothing came around so far.
And suddenly everything happens at once and explodes into my face.
I saw this offer, that sounded suitable and applied. They called me nearly instantly and invited me. At the end of the interview they wanted me to spend a day there as a test as soon as possible, meaning I have to take a day off; they were really pushy, want me to quit my current job asap as well.
That brought me in quite a pickle. Our annual interviews are coming up, I'm this close to go on vacation - I just applied there to see how it goes and never expected everything to move so fast.
Because I needed that free day and because my stupid sense of loyalty bugged me did I end up telling my supervisor the truth. And he spread the word and of course it led to several talks about everything and that they don't want me to leave.
To make the timing even more shitty: They had planed to put me into accounting stuff fulll time now, exactly doing, what I like to do, with one of my most beloved co workers. No customer service shit anymore. No later shifts. No duty on weekend. That was in fact what I would have wanted to ask them at my annual interview as well. The shitty commute would remain, but I didn't expect to find anything anytime soon, so at least it would make the time until I find something, less shitty.
I was completely overwhelmed, with everyone pulling at me at the same time.
I asked to have that day in that company - and they are indeed a very good one. Commute, payment, workhours etc are a dream, I would never hesitant in this regard! But the work, I'd have to do there, still contains too much of the customer service stuff I already deal with and want to cut down. Bummer. What good does me all the other stuff, when work isn't fun?
Today I went back to work, starting to negotiate with my current company and felt like utter shit while doing so. They did give in a little bit, emphasising how thankful I can be for them doing so.
Tomorrow the other company will call me, and I'll have to turn them down. Then tell my current one, I'm cool with the offer.
Although I feel super uneasy and aswul, I don't really think, that's the wrong decision. As outstanding as the offer is, if I don't enjoy work in the long run, that doesn't help me. As well as good work with my nice coworker doesn't really help with a frustrating commute 'n stuff. So with them offering me a better position and workhours, that lighten that up a bit for me, I think, staying is my best option. I will also gain more experience in this field, what would make it easier for me to apply for similar positions some time in the future, what was now quite hard.
I just whish I could redo them ever knowing. In my head everyone hates me now and is wary of me leaving. (Of course I had to swear that I'd turn the others down and stopp applying immediately, that they would even negotiate with me.)
So much stress these days, my body is totally worn out and I feel super stupid. Just felt like I had to write it out of my system before I try to get at least some sleep this night.