It sounds like you are deliberately avoiding it though, just not to the extent that if you received a Hobsbawm book as a gift you'd burn it before reading it. There are plenty of books you could read if you don't want to trawl sci-hub. But I'll be the first to admit that much of it isn't exactly easy reading.
That said, perhaps a bit of humbleness/curiosity when confronted with ideas/terms you aren't familiar with due to your political reading coming primarily from a limited perspective? Instead of saying "lol what is this" and comparing a mammoth quantity of work across many disciplines to religious texts.
This sounds kind of inconsistent. But my guess is that the leftist economics you're referring to isn't the same thing as the critical political economy sphagnum was referring to. But if it's philosophy/theory specifically that you're not interested in, there's plenty of classic works with a more economic focus: Keynes, Robinson, Kalecki, Veblen, Polanyi, Minsky, Marx
