do you know what it feels like to have who you are finally catch up to you
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I've experienced it both as a great feeling and a horrible feeling, at different times in my life.
my extreme laziness is catching up to me as I've been failing to finish my phd for way too long now
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weed should be a way of avoiding confrontation with that fact. you deserve better weed
I've literally just procrastinated about brushing my teeth and going to bed for a couple of hours now
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then who failed
I can tell you've edited this extensively, no judgement, do what makes you happy
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well thanks to this thread i finally got it done. going to bed now
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I used to worry about that but then I realized that was a form of imposter syndrome, remembered my accomplishments, and accomplished some more things.
Luck and privilege definitely play a part in most of our lives, but the things we truly accomplish can't be taken away from us.
Edit - Altho if I read this another way, I've definitely had my mistakes and lies catch up to me. But that's not who I am, but what I've done.
Luck and privilege definitely play a part in most of our lives, but the things we truly accomplish can't be taken away from us.
Edit - Altho if I read this another way, I've definitely had my mistakes and lies catch up to me. But that's not who I am, but what I've done.
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i do wish i could let go of everything but it doesn't work that way
that is not how mistakes work
Get some sleep, OP.
Sounds like you could use it.
Regroup and plan your next move in the morning.
Sounds like you could use it.
Regroup and plan your next move in the morning.
Oh yeah, my anxieties exaggerate my procrastination and it’s come to a head a few times in the form of academic probation and even getting fired from a job. But I’ve been learning my limits and improving and I know you can too
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i downed a bottle of whiskey and woke up somehow hungover AND drunk at 10pm
honestly I don't want morning to come
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1. impressive callout of me being 20 years old
2. no, this isn't about my place in my lifetime, it's more about just having chosen to be a failure
There are only people. You can still choose to be healthier. If you are all your choices, then make incrementally better ones everyday. Drown out the anger and heal. It is hard, but it is worth it.
Hey I've been there, I recognized it haha. The only judge of that is you, no one here is going to seriously call you a failure. Life is hard. If it makes you feel any better a relative of mine is going through the same mindset at the moment and is in a similar point in life. It will get better. You can be proactive and get yourself out there more too. Go on geek meetups, get into a hobby, see the weird little niches of pop culture. That's not failing at life.
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Acknowledge perceived failure and move on. Continuing to condemn yourself doesn't make you more productive, knowledgeable, or happy. All you can do is learn and grow.
Yeah. This past week and a half are the worst I can recall.
Oh I know.
Join me in despair OP.
Oh I know.
Join me in despair OP.
not really OP. I'm in a bad place but as cynical as I am I still have hope and a plan. There's always a light at the other side.
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I know from experience that even when I just give up on holding myself to any standard I just grow complacent