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Doctors told me today I have around 8 weeks to live [Update: in remission!]
- Thread starter Talal
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Always glad to hear that you're still doing well! Stay strong, bud!
OP
OP
Thanks for the kind replies everyone. Was feeling a little down.
Chemo and intense radiotherapy. This type is very aggressive form of cancer but is more responsive than others. Has high chance of relapse tho.
OP
OP
Hi Era ! It has been a while since I last posted an update. I'm gonna get a check up done next week so there's nothing really new cancer-related but I feel I need to talk to you guys.
The past couple of months have been absurdly rough on me. My father's cirrhosis evolved into pre-cancerous stage. One of the symptoms is varicose veins in his oesophagus among others. This side effect kinda ruined our life recently, on one hand if one pops it's certain death. I don't know how to describe it but the constant fear takes its toll. On the other it put us in a severe financial situation but that's the least we can do. My mom's mental health is doing real bad and she refuses to take any meds too but I do my best to take care of them both.
Health-wise I'm doing...terrible. I think the treatment side effects coupled with stress are responsible. I developped gynecomastia, sebbhoreic dermatitis (?) and worst of all, an illness I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, the devil's illness like I call it: SHINGLES :D . I'm also panicking a little tbh.
This might not seem like much but I'm really struggling. I shouldn't say this but many times I imagine killing myself or welcoming death. I have been told the chemo can do this to you too. I know that's it's not acceptable so I try to see the positive things and look forward to a brighter future. I also talk about it with friends and it generally goes away. It's been a real challenge since the start but I'm grateful that I suffered and got to do the treatment only after many hardships and thanks to several people on here and outside coming together to help me out. Any other way and I think I would have abandonned. I never feel alone and I will never give up.
Thank you guys for reading and for caring about me. I love and will make sure to keep you updated following the check up. Love you guys a lot <3
The past couple of months have been absurdly rough on me. My father's cirrhosis evolved into pre-cancerous stage. One of the symptoms is varicose veins in his oesophagus among others. This side effect kinda ruined our life recently, on one hand if one pops it's certain death. I don't know how to describe it but the constant fear takes its toll. On the other it put us in a severe financial situation but that's the least we can do. My mom's mental health is doing real bad and she refuses to take any meds too but I do my best to take care of them both.
Health-wise I'm doing...terrible. I think the treatment side effects coupled with stress are responsible. I developped gynecomastia, sebbhoreic dermatitis (?) and worst of all, an illness I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy, the devil's illness like I call it: SHINGLES :D . I'm also panicking a little tbh.
This might not seem like much but I'm really struggling. I shouldn't say this but many times I imagine killing myself or welcoming death. I have been told the chemo can do this to you too. I know that's it's not acceptable so I try to see the positive things and look forward to a brighter future. I also talk about it with friends and it generally goes away. It's been a real challenge since the start but I'm grateful that I suffered and got to do the treatment only after many hardships and thanks to several people on here and outside coming together to help me out. Any other way and I think I would have abandonned. I never feel alone and I will never give up.
Thank you guys for reading and for caring about me. I love and will make sure to keep you updated following the check up. Love you guys a lot <3
I'm so glad to hear that you're still fighting OP. I can't imagine the type of hardship you're going thru and it may not mean much but I am sincerely rooting for you and your family. You're incredibly strong to have made it this far and I think you can keep trucking.
I hope those suicidal thoughts go away. Who's gonna take care of your folks and your friends will hate you for being so selfish.
Keep fighting. I myself have undergone a life changing near-death illness recently and the meds have also not been good to my mental well-being. Friends and family have kept my spirits up.
This is my motivation: many people have sacrificed so much to ensure I lived through my illness, I will pay them back by living day by day by getting better so I can be there for them too in the future.
Good luck and take care OP and keep us updated.
OP
OP
Thank you guys, it really means a lot to me :').
Thank you for your kind words and for changing the story. I feel the same and I wouldn't have worded my words better. Hope everything will be ok for you too.
I'm sorry but what a fucked up horrible thing to say. Don't fucking guilt suicidal people.
Me an my wife just went through a very hard moment in our lives where we were out of money, her father was diagnosed with prostate cancer and other stuff. A few months later, we paid our loans and are in a good financial situation, her father is basically cured and the future is looking bright. I'm sure your situation will improve if you stay strong!
By the way, I also have sebbhoreic dermatitis. My wife has sebbhoreic dermatitis. My best friend has sebbhoreic dermatitis. Maybe it's a thing here in Brazil? ^_^ A bit annoying, but you'll get used to it.
Despite all of that, I'm glad the side effects are your biggest problem right now, not cancer. That has to be a good thing, right? You're doing great, man, keep fighting!
By the way, I also have sebbhoreic dermatitis. My wife has sebbhoreic dermatitis. My best friend has sebbhoreic dermatitis. Maybe it's a thing here in Brazil? ^_^ A bit annoying, but you'll get used to it.
Despite all of that, I'm glad the side effects are your biggest problem right now, not cancer. That has to be a good thing, right? You're doing great, man, keep fighting!
Hey man, hadn't check this thread in a looooong time to that update in the title was very uplifting!
I'm sorry for the other rough aspects of your life, but keep fighting and you'll figure them out!
PS: You have the Magician avatar so you'll get past everything with one trick or the other ;=)
I'm sorry for the other rough aspects of your life, but keep fighting and you'll figure them out!
PS: You have the Magician avatar so you'll get past everything with one trick or the other ;=)
OP
OP
Yes ! Besides the shingles, these side effects are just annoying really. I always say I got 99 problems but cancer ain't one (I hope).
OP
OP
Been with this thread since the first page, I'm glad you're keeping up the fight and doing well! I'm sorry to hear about the current side effects your getting, they can really, really suck.
On a side note, your thread always uplifts my spirits (In general too!) of living with my Crohn's disease. I know yours is on a completely different level, so if you are able to fight THAT, I can fight Crohn's.
On a side note, your thread always uplifts my spirits (In general too!) of living with my Crohn's disease. I know yours is on a completely different level, so if you are able to fight THAT, I can fight Crohn's.
Don't apologize! Sometimes you just need to talk to people. We're here for you just like your irl friends are there for you it sounds like, thankfully. It's truly the best just to be able to vent about stuff to people and feel a little boost of reinforcement. I'm glad that you have those people in your life.youll get through this phase, as much as it sucks.
I had shingles when I was a kid. It was a bizarre case where I contracted both chickenpox and shingles simultaneously. It was horrible. Worst week of my life (outside of the one I spent passing a kidney stone). The worst part was the itchy ness and knowing that you can't scratch. It was mental torture resisting the constant urge to scratch just for that few seconds of reprieve from the infernal itch. Couldn't sleep. Couldn't move for fear of agitating the rash or the pox. Good news is that once you get it supposedly you've got the antibodies for life and you'll never get it again. Or so my doctor told me anyways.So just focus on that. Knowing you'll eventually defeat it forever got me through it.
Best of luck op. You got this. Ain't nothing but a bump in the road to being free and clear.
Best of luck op. You got this. Ain't nothing but a bump in the road to being free and clear.
We love you Talal !
No need to apologize, we got your back everytime you'd feel less good ;)
I don't mean this one way or another but this just strikes me as the most Talal thing ever. That's a hell of a way to sum up everything you're going through, good and bad. Gave me a good long chuckle.
I don't post much on this thread but I love seeing your updates and this thread gives me immense joy. Know that these are flickers in time. You have a long, long life ahead of you. These hard moments will pass. My dad passed away due to cancer a few years ago and needless to say, my life was shattered. It affected my marriage. I couldn't bear it, the thoughts were too heavy. But you have to keep going. There is death and pain in this world, but there is also life and beauty. The weight of negativity will obscure your view but keep in mind that it's a long game, and let hard moments pass. You have already defeated cancer, which is like climbing two mount Everests back to back. It's not worth it to give up after that. Look forward to the rest of your life, even if it is not easy or you don't want to think about it. Start with small things. Which games are you looking forward to play next year? FF7 remake? Cyberpunk?
Hoping the best for you dude and know that there are LOT of people rooting for you, including me, most of all and are in awe of what you have accomplished so far. Keep it up!
Whenever you're getting down and depressed, just remember that out of nearly 50,000 posters here, you're the only one with an "Unbreakable" tag below your name. You are literally the most unbreakable fucker on this entire site; life can't break you down!
Feel free to reach out whenever you need a boost buddy. We're here for you :)
