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Do you remember ronito?

  • Yes

    Votes: 380 52.6%
  • No

    Votes: 51 7.1%
  • roni-who?

    Votes: 108 15.0%
  • Thor: The Dark World

    Votes: 183 25.3%

  • Total voters
    722
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B1ggRandall

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HOLY SHIT! 😮😮😮 I'm sorry homie!
 
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I wonder what his wife thinks the line is.

If you are afraid of your SO finding out about how you act intimately with another person, you crossed the line.
If you wouldn't tell your SO about what you did, it's crossing a line. Amazing how some people say "we didn't have sex" as if that's the only trust you have to worry about breaking.
 

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And then after a couple weeks, it turned to the opposite: I felt disgust for, because any girl that likes a fat loser like me must be disgusting, too. Even now, long after, I have moments where I get a gag reflex when I think about her, even though she's definitly not ugly. She weighed 100kg, but had great proportions and smooth skin. But again ... she chose me, and that made her disgusting in my eyes.

Please have more respect for yourself than this, confessor. Irrespective of thinness' cultural desirability (I won't condescend to you by pretending it doesn't exist), it's not what makes a person valuable, and certainly isn't much of a marker of quality of a partner. There are probably reasons she thinks you're worth being around that you may not be able to fully process simply because you're the one having to live with yourself all day.

Anyway, I ordered Ring Fit Adventure today. Watched Boogie use it on youtube

Definitely have more respect for yourself than this, confessor.
 
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neoak

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Years ago, in my early twenties, I was alone in front of my PC, watching some cheaps softcore Korean B-movie that I got from my friend. Some of the stories are hilarious. I don't even know any korean and there's no substitle. But I'm here not to talk about that. In that same folder, there's also a Japanese porn, a JAV if you familiar with that. Oh, I should tell you before that I really enjoy most of Japanese entertainment like manga, anime, movie and ecetera-ecetera. Back to the porn that I watch, it started with a family husband and wife, eating breakfast plus getting ready to work, expect this is porn so instead good luck kissing there fucking. To be honest that was hot, and wondering if I ever get married something like that could happen (I know it's unrealistic expecting sex before going to work). So, I keep watching, the husband gone and the wife alone, and then a plumber came in... you know what happen next. At that point I thought it's time to finally beat my meat. It took a while, my hand start to feel sore, but I didnt think that I'll came yet. I remember the plumber hit her from back for a few minutes and with a clicking sound the door open. The husband came back early. In that situation she, surprised, confused, yell with a subtle tone of regret: "Anata!?" then I felt that everything slowdown, a sudden chill come down to my spine and you know the rest. I paused the video because the plumber didn't fucking stop pounding her after that. I was confused, did I just nutted to word that japanese wife use to address their husband? did I just nutted because I subsconsciously like affairs-themed-porn? or I just nutted because how weebs I became. Felt really terible somewhat, and that feeling often came again. It haunts me. So i think it would be better if I get this out from my chest. Sorry if this is hard to read, english is not my first language and sorry if this is not wild enough such as other incest stories.

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neoak

neoak

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I recently came out as asexual, and have no interest in finding someone, but I worry it's for the wrong reason.

There's a lot of hereditary diseases in my family - from serious stuff like diabetes and cancer, to simple things like every male on my mom's side needing vision correction at some point. I figured the best way to stop this from happening is to not have children, and it has the nice side effect of keeping young lives out of this hellscape that we live in in 2019.

Am I nuts?

I mean, if you don't want to to continue the line, that is up to you. It's your life.
 
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neoak

neoak

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For the last 5 years, I've been lying about having my driving license to my closest friends. I've been friends with this group of people since the start of middle school, i went to a different different school for the last two years and we didn't really stay connected. A couple months after graduating, we all reconnected and for some dumb reason I decided to tell them that I had my full license despite only having a learners permit. After more driving experiences, I realised that I had a fear of being behind the wheel and that driving wasn't really for me. But I kept up the lies, I went to weird lengths like asking my parents to not mention my lack of a license and taking photos of myself in a car. By the time I realised how stupid and shitty I was, a couple years had passed and I was in too deep.
That was up until about 3 months ago, I'd recently become really guilty over lying them, I didn't want to lie to them anymore. I finally told them the truth and the reason I kept up the lie. They made fun of me and had a bunch of questions but overall they were fine with it, its honestly the most liberating thing I've ever done and we're all still friends. I'm also seeing a therapist about my fear and am hoping to actually get a license in the near future. Its never too late to own up to your mistakes Era.
PS. stop with the incest stuff guys

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neoak

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Hi everyone, chronic masturbator here. (I'm making the pun because all of you failed to make it last year)

I sent an e-mail last year about being a NEET/Hikikomori with a crippling addiction to edging all day long while smoking pot and watching internet porn.
I'm unhappy to report, despite trying, I have managed to change nothing about my situation and now things are falling apart all around me.
I haven't told anyone outside of you guys yet and I don't think I can bring myself to do so because it'd destroy their perceptions of me.
But I'm incapable of accomplishing anything in life while I'm this addicted. I go to bed every night & vow to do better tomorrow but almost every morning I wake up & fap.
I managed a single week of not fapping once and I was utterely unproductive as all I could think about was fapping.

According to pornhubpremium I have watched 13628 individual videos in the past year that I've had this account, it doesn't count re-watches, it also doesn't include the other websites that I visit,
& I visit them all from allanal to zero tolerance. I'm not saying this to brag I'm saying this to indicate the scope of my problems. I don't know how to stop.
I bought a fleshlight out of morbid curiosity and to hopefully become less sexually demanding for my fiance and it has only increased my problems.
Now I want to buy a V.R headset to immerse myself even more and I'm afraid I'll do it and somehow make it even worse. I also shouldn't spend my money that way because
I still smoke a good 800-1000 dollars worth of pot a month while being financially insolvent and unemployed. I don't even collect benefits so my mother and fiance are
bankrolling my insane habit & I feel like an absolute subhuman for letting them do so. My mom buys pot for me & gives me a monthly allowance. My fiance feeds me and pays the rent.
I spend most of my allowance on videogames I never play because I'm always fapping and I now have a 1000 game+ backlog.

I know I'm a terrible human being & it weighs on me massively & I hate myself & my life & I feel guilty for ruining the lives of the people connected to me but I can't stop.
Things are falling apart and my mom has become depressed lately which is understandable because she has been working 2 jobs for the last decade and a half to support my nonsense.
I'm afraid she's reached the end of her rope since she's been forced to take sick leave from her job after it was discovered she was abusing pain medication just to be able to keep working 2 jobs.
I feel personally responsible but I have no idea how to fix it or help since I have 0 real world skills outside of masturbating.

I have a little bit of artistic talent & am theoretically -iq tests are a lie- intellectually gifted but I suffer from imposter syndrome, social anxiety, general anxiety, obesity, & obviously a crippling masturbation addiction.
At the same time I'm kind of glad this is coming to an end because my mom is my principal enabler and she's the one who helped me create this unhealthy situation I find myself in.
However I also know that my mom is still worried about me financially which is making her feel worthless because she can't support me while she's on sick-leave benefits
I have told her I don't need the support and it's probably for the best because the current situation is unhealthy for both of us but she's still worried.
She's also worried for her own finances because she's spent anywhere between 1k-1.5k a month on me so she has 0 savings and sick-leave benefits are less than 60% of her regular salary.
I feel so responsible yet utterly unable to help and it's killing me because I can tell she's on the verge of crying every time we speak but I don't know what to do.

I've told myself I wouldn't masturbate every day for three weeks straight now and every morning I have just relapsed into the same old cycle of smoking pot and edging.
I don't know how to help myself.

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neoak

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I'm a 25 year old squirrelly shy type girl working at a library by day and a massive slut by night. Nobody has any idea about the double life I live. Most people see me and assume I'm a shy nerdy girl going nowhere. At work I dress very conservatively, and always seem meek and hapless. My co-workers always joke I'll die alone because I dress like an old lady. Guys avoid me because I go out of my way to make myself as unattractive as possible. yet as soon as night hits and the weekend starts I shed those clothes and hit the clubs. I LOOOOVE sex, I love men, I'm a massive pervert and sex maniac. I consider it a bad night if I don't at least give someone head. Most the time I leave with at least 1-2 men. At my wildest I once had 5 men take turns on me.

I wasn't always a slut. in HS I had severe BI problems and struggled massively with weight. No man ever showed any interest in me no matter what I did. In College I aimed to change my situation and got into shape. Underneath that fat was a very sexy body and I aimed to use it to my advantage. yet being a slut has a negative associate. Men can have as much sex as they want but, if a woman does it then she's used goods and considered bad. SO I'm forced to hide my true self under the guise of that shy meek conservative librarian. Do you know how many cute guys I've had to ignore/reject because I was so afraid of being seen as a slut? It takes a lot of restraint not to reveal myself; specially when some of the guys come in from the GYM nearby.

Funny thing is my family STILL think I'm a virgin. Hell I think most people assume I am and will never find a guy. If only they knew what a slut I am.

Librarian by day, slut by night. That's me.

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Professor Beef

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If the librarian loves dick, then more power to her

Shame that she thinks guys won't like her because they might think she's a slut, because the right person for her wouldn't shame her like that

assuming it's real of course
 

AnansiThePersona

Started a revolution but the mic was unplugged
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Oct 27, 2017
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How so? Like in the sense that she shouldn't have to hide who she is?
Kinda. Like when she said she rejects cute guys because she doesn't want them to find out what a slut she is. Maybe don't put herself in that "slut" bubble. Especially if it's stopping her from dating guys she's into in her everyday life.

(Again, assuming the story isn't completely fake like it probably is)
 

Evilisk

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Just noticed the number of votes

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so S P O O K Y ~


The whole issue honestly sounds really harmless, though I get it

Cars are terrifying, metal coffins on wheels, and not enough people think of them that way. Even though I've been a full license driver for the past few years, I am still not comfortable with having to drive one. I'd say having a good, healthy, reasonable paranoia of driving cars is good... though in my case, it's totally led to me having to drive more than I actually want to (because I've never crashed, I'm now the "safe driver" in the family, and I hate that)


I think I remember this confessor, so it's disappointing to hear that this is the followup.

...I dunno even know what to say tbh. I've had to become more financially responsible for myself this year, so reading how "they can't do anything" about the money they might as well be flushing down the toilet is infuriating to hear. Like, you could just stop paying for the porn. You don't even have to stop with your 'problem', just not paying for that shit (and the games), and saving it up, would have been an easy first step.

Ugh, I just hope their mom gets out okay of this situation.
 

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Oi, have you considered that you might be in a codependent relationship? This reads like your mom and fiance are enabling you, and thereby controlling you too. If you want real change, and you haven't managed it by yourself yet, try therapy. Individual, Couples, and Family? The whole team here needs some work, you're in it together after all.
 

BDS

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I'm a 25 year old squirrelly shy type girl, by day I work at a library but secretly with the help of my friends at STAR Labs I fight crime and find other metahumans like me.
 

ShyMel

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Oct 31, 2017
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Hi everyone, chronic masturbator here. (I'm making the pun because all of you failed to make it last year)
Please try and get yourself into therapy. Maybe try installing a porn website blocker on all internet connected devices to try and limit your access to it.
 

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neoak

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Two confessions. I never sent fake confessions and I was never trolling Why did I lie? I wanted attention in a time I was feeling crippling loneliness. People often ignore me or brush off what I say. My mistake was derailing the confession thread and I'm honestly sorry. That's the honest truth. The confessions being real or not I don't know but, I can tell you I never sent any fake confessions and any email saying such was false.

On that note I was perma-banned from Era and honestly think mods were right. Even since my days of Gaf I've always been opinionated and had a foot in mouth syndrome. You think after numerous bans I would've learned to shut the hell up? Never did and I guess the mods finally got sick of me. But, let me preface by saying I was never trolling. People on Era often called me a troll, even the mods did but, my opinions were always genuine. Honestly wish things would have gone different. My name is Alimnassor and I wish to apologize for anyone I pissed off before. Note; this is not a ban appeal. I fucked up and paid the price. I'll take my punishment like a man and stay banned. Besides people would be happier if I were gone. Can't think of a time their was ever a positive contribution by me.

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neoak

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So yeah, this has been going on for a couple of years at least. I have a crush with a co-worker that's few years younger than me. She has a lot of common interests as me and we sometimes talk about them in the office or via messenger. She's kinda attractive, bright, and never shy to speak up in every situation. She's like a free spirit brightening up the office.

Back to earth, I fully aware that this is wrong. This is not supposed to be happening to me. That said, I'm not planning to hit on her either. Never did, never will. She also know her place and doesn't seem interested in me romantically. Sometimes, I wonder if I should just leave the job, but I love my job. And I love my wife.

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neoak

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Hello ERA (?)

This is a weird confession but I feel like I need to get it off my chest. I feel completely socially isolated. Now I'm not a NEET, have graduated college, currently go to work everyday. Yet I don't feel accepted in any friend group, have ruined the relationships most important to me, never had a serious romantic relationship, and I feel more and more detached from humanity in general every day. I've tried the usual hit the gym, new activities, all those things, yet I wake up feeling like I should probably die but even that seems to have no point because who would care.

I know I'm just rambling at this point but thanks for reading.

Negativity repels people. Maybe find something that makes you happy and go from there?
 
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neoak

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Hey Era, this is my first confession and relatively tame compared to the ones posted for this year's thread. To put it simply, I am madly in love with a cam model. She is my extremely busty, raven-haired goddess, my Helen of Troy. I would burn this country to the ground if she willed it. If I were rich I would buy her everything from her Amazon wish list and all the videos she has ever posted. The fact that she is very, very, very well endowed is not even the reason I fell so hard for her. We have the same interests, we are both mega nerds, and that we are both introverts is what made me realize that I am in love with her. I'm quite confident that if we ever met in real life, we would be good friends at the very least. I know it is illogical that I could feel this way about anyone that I never met in person, but I can't help it. I barely even notice women around me at work or in public at this point. And before anyone says anything, no I haven't tried cyberstalking her or anything weird like that. Everything I know about her is from her Reddit AMA that she ran and whatever she posts on Twitter.

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Before we start, it's not some pornhub story. In 2014, I met a woman online (let's call her Amanda). She was my age. We hit it off. We partied a bit, fucked a bit, ya know. In 2015, my father is talking about this woman he met that is amazing, awesome, and perfect for him since my mother left him. I was OK with it. He would post facebook photos of them together. All happy. I am happy for him. I remember it was her birthday and he wanted me to show up. I did. The woman's daughter? The woman I slept with in 2014. It wasn't actually as awkward as I thought UNTIL my father asked her to marry her on her birthday at a god damn bowling alley. The moment he asked her in front of everyone I took a sharp look at her daughter and she did I. I could tell in her eyes that this will be awkward. She most definitely sensed the same thing. The mother accepts the proposal. We give awkward chuckles to each other throughout the night and kind of avoid even bringing it up. In 2017 they are married. I am my father's best man and Amanda is a bride's maid (the mother's sister was the maid of honor). My father is pretty old school and is kind of oddly chivalrously protective of women, so he's all, "You should protect your new sister and brothers" and stuff because they are now family. I just agree because because whatever.

Here is where it gets weird. Me and Amanda were cool with it because we just didn't care that we fucked before they were married. I then visit my dad and stepmom because they are hosting an open house party for his birthday as a surprise for my father since she asked me to show up. They have all the friends, neighbors here and stuff. My dad is excited I am here cause I live across the country from him. I remember this moment as clear as day. I am sitting there on the sofa talking to an old friend and my dad is going over old family photos on facebook to show me as a kid and when I got older. They then somehow reach 2014. All I of a sudden here is, "Is that Amanda? How did she know your son before this?" Because I got a few photos of me at bars and clubs. You ever sit there knowing someone is going to ask you a question but you have zero idea how to respond to what they're going to ask you? My stepmon then asks Amanda in a weird surprised tone as to how she knew me in 2014. After a little bit of a pause all she says is, "Tinder?"

I've never seen a person's awkward smile disappear so fast.

I drank my corona in silence.

I believe my stepmom is over the fact I slept with her daughter, but there's an obvious "you little shit" vibe I get from her time to time.

PS. She was absolutely amazing in bed. I try not to envision it when I see Amanda with her husband.


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viciouskillersquirrel

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Oct 25, 2017
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They had us in the first half, I'm not gonna lie
Honestly though, everyone who has even an even average libido will at some point be attracted to someone around them that they should never ever hook up with, lest they end up destroying lives, marriages and careers. Sometimes these feelings are even mutual. The confessor is doing exactly what he's supposed to do in these situations.

It reminds me of a confession series from last year where someone who was in a long term relationship had a crush on his secretary and acted on it. It broke them up and the new thing fizzled out into nothing. Now in his case, he was fully aware of what he was doing and he was also subtly orchestrating situations where the two of them would be both alone and drinking in a hotel room. Obviously in these situations, part of successfully staying faithful is avoiding putting yourself in these kinds of scenarios.

Well done confessor and keep at it.
 
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