Hey I posted a couple weeks ago talking about how I was sure what I wanted out of lifting, and it's actually gotten worse.
First of all, I started getting really bad tennis elbow, to the point that I took a week off. I only lifted once this week and it mostly felt fine, but I'm not feeling that consistent drive anymore. I decided I never want to compete in powerlifting, and now I'm not sure why I'm still training mostly powerlifting. I have a coach and I'm wondering if I even need him. He gives me pretty brutal programming; actually his programming has been too brutal as of late. It's probably why I'm burning out. Two of my five days are up to three hours of work, with TONS of volume on the compounds. I'm not sure why he's suddenly pushing me so hard. I never looked into programming on my own because this guy has literally been my coach from day one. He took me from barely being able to box squat 20 pounds to somewhat respectable numbers in less than a year and a half. No joke, before I met him I was completely fucked... almost immobile for YEARS. He transformed my life... I can't deny that.
Man this is more rambly than I expected, but the bottom line is this: I lost track of what my goals are; essentially I'm lost. I have no idea where to go from here.
I just know there's a (shallow) part of me that wants to "look strong". Like nobody has once commented that I look like I lift weights, even though I'm far stronger than the average person. I might need to shed this idea because it's inherently unhealthy.
All I know is it feels weird to lift for no particular reason. Is it for health? Because I certainly don't feel healthy. Strong maybe, but not healthy. I feel like garbage pretty much all the time.
First of all, I started getting really bad tennis elbow, to the point that I took a week off. I only lifted once this week and it mostly felt fine, but I'm not feeling that consistent drive anymore. I decided I never want to compete in powerlifting, and now I'm not sure why I'm still training mostly powerlifting. I have a coach and I'm wondering if I even need him. He gives me pretty brutal programming; actually his programming has been too brutal as of late. It's probably why I'm burning out. Two of my five days are up to three hours of work, with TONS of volume on the compounds. I'm not sure why he's suddenly pushing me so hard. I never looked into programming on my own because this guy has literally been my coach from day one. He took me from barely being able to box squat 20 pounds to somewhat respectable numbers in less than a year and a half. No joke, before I met him I was completely fucked... almost immobile for YEARS. He transformed my life... I can't deny that.
Man this is more rambly than I expected, but the bottom line is this: I lost track of what my goals are; essentially I'm lost. I have no idea where to go from here.
I just know there's a (shallow) part of me that wants to "look strong". Like nobody has once commented that I look like I lift weights, even though I'm far stronger than the average person. I might need to shed this idea because it's inherently unhealthy.
All I know is it feels weird to lift for no particular reason. Is it for health? Because I certainly don't feel healthy. Strong maybe, but not healthy. I feel like garbage pretty much all the time.