Hello Era I think I'm going insane

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

I had a viral infection and stupidly I treat it with 60mg of codien per day for 2 days and some very strong cannabis on the 2nd evening. Since then I've had constant deja vu, anxiety, some delusions like being convinced I can tell the future and stuff like that.

I'm a 29 year old male and I've been told that maybe it's not some cannabis induced psychosis but instead it's a brain tumour. I have a 2 year old daughter and another on the way and I'm absolutely terrified it's a tumour. I've had a urgent care doctor suggest possible tumour and a GP say he doesn't think it is but running some bloods. I'm terrified I have a tumour and no one will catch it or something will happen even if they do.

I'm sitting here waiting to pick my daughter from preschool and I'm scared shirtless but writing it down helps.

I don't have other tumour symptoms no seizures or headaches or numbness I do a little fatigue and I'm tired but I think my brain is just in overdrive.
I've had ADHD as a child but it's controlled now by force of will basically. I may have grown out of it.

Faced with the options I'm much less scared of mental illness than a tumour tbh

I just don't know what to do anymore.

danowat · Oct 14, 2019

Who told you it was a brain tumor?

Deffers · Oct 14, 2019

Tumors aren't necessarily a death sentence, for one thing. For another, you're not exhibiting major symptoms, so if it IS a tumor you've likely caught it early. And it's... bloody unlikely it's a tumor, but it's one of those low risk high danger scenarios if it is.
Um... the viral infection in question... what kind is it?

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

danowat said:
Who told you it was a brain tumor?

I went to urgent care and a doctor said it's possibly a brain tumour and then sent me home and told me to book an appointment Monday which I've just had and he did some strength checks and looked in my eye and sent me for bloods

Creation_Scapes · Oct 14, 2019

Have you taken your temperature?

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Deffers said:
Tumors aren't necessarily a death sentence, for one thing. For another, you're not exhibiting major symptoms, so if it IS a tumor you've likely caught it early. And it's... bloody unlikely it's a tumor, but it's one of those low risk high danger scenarios if it is.
Um... the viral infection in question... what kind is it?

Unknown viral infection. I had a face rash and a swollen left testical and some cold like symptoms

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Creation_Scapes said:
Have you taken your temperature?

Not recently

danowat · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
I went to urgent care and a doctor said it's possibly a brain tumour and then sent me home and told me to book an appointment Monday which I've just had and he did some strength checks and looked in my eye and sent me for bloods

Don't catastrophize it, sounds like something a decent doctor wouldn't come out and say without at least doing some indepth tests first, and the GP says he doesn't think it is, so focus on that.

Sounds like that, and the anxiety are feeding your panic.

Arkanius · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
I went to urgent care and a doctor said it's possibly a brain tumour and then sent me home and told me to book an appointment Monday which I've just had and he did some strength checks and looked in my eye and sent me for bloods

That's some shitty malpractice from him if he just said "Might be a tumor, come tomorrow again". Panic inducing.
Go to the Urgent Care again and raise up the symptoms you are feeling. You should get scanned if there is a tumor possibility.

Creation_Scapes · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
Not recently

I wonder if you’re running a fever, I always get anxious when I have a fever.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Arkanius said:
That's some shitty malpractice from him if he just said "Might be a tumor, come tomorrow again"
Go to the Urgent Care again and raise up the symptoms you are feeling. You should get scanned if there is a tumor possibility.

So apparently the only way I can get a scan is via a GP referral

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

I'm just scared guys and I know I shouldn't be but it can't tell myself not to be its not working

Buzzman · Oct 14, 2019

So you decided to "treat" a viral infection with opiates and extra strong cannabis for two days, now you're feeling weirdly delusional and detached and you're wondering if it might be a brain tumour?
I'm going to say it's probably the drugs.

danowat · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
I'm just scared guys and I know I shouldn't be but it can't tell myself not to be its not working

It's only natural, but I don't know what else anyone can say to stop you panicking, and lay off the cannabis.

Arkanius · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
So apparently the only way I can get a scan is via a GP referral

Works a bit different around here.
Alright then, can you appoint a GP apointment ASAP? Do you have a GP doctor that is assigned to your family?

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Buzzman said:
So you decided to "treat" a viral infection with opiates and extra strong cannabis for two days, now you're feeling weirdly delusional and detached and you're wondering if it might be a brain tumour?
I'm going to say it's probably the drugs.

I'm super aware it's probably the drugs but it's been going on for a while now surely those things should be out my System by now. It was 4 days ago I smoked

Deffers · Oct 14, 2019

Buzzman said:
So you decided to "treat" a viral infection with opiates and extra strong cannabis for two days, now you're feeling weirdly delusional and detached and you're wondering if it might be a brain tumour?
I'm going to say it's probably the drugs.

Gonna say this.

In my opinion, OP's probably high. You shouldn't ever treat a viral infection with just drugs on your own, but barring problems from that viral infection brain issues seem exceedingly unlikely, and cannabis-facilitated paranoia seems extremely possible.

EDIT: OP, it's important to note you MIXED drugs. That makes it difficult to say if you're clear-headed or not, especially if you got rough news in the meantime.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Arkanius said:
Works a bit different around here.
Alright then, can you appoint a GP apointment ASAP? Do you have a GP doctor that is assigned to your family?

No and no I seen a GP today and like I said he sent me for bloods and I'm waiting on those

bobeth · Oct 14, 2019

Buzzman said:
So you decided to "treat" a viral infection with opiates and extra strong cannabis for two days, now you're feeling weirdly delusional and detached and you're wondering if it might be a brain tumour?
I'm going to say it's probably the drugs.

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dreams · Oct 14, 2019

This isn't very helpful for you, but to try to make you feel better, my aunt had a small brain tumor discovered and removed about 10 years ago and she fully recovered. Like you she didn't really show any of the "normal" symptoms.

Fatoy · Oct 14, 2019

Why would you treat a viral infection with an opioid painkiller?

Creation_Scapes · Oct 14, 2019

Be careful with the weed also it can cause some of those thoughts you’re having even into the next days, at least for me anyways :/

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Fatoy said:
Why would you treat a viral infection with an opioid painkiller?

Well I was treating the pain in my left testical

wandering · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
I went to urgent care and a doctor said it's possibly a brain tumour and then sent me home and told me to book an appointment Monday which I've just had and he did some strength checks and looked in my eye and sent me for bloods

Was it an actual physician or a mid-level, like a physician’s assistant, nurse practitioner, etc.

Urgent cares are notoriously poorly staffed, so I’d take what they say with a grain of salt.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

wandering said:
Was it an actual physician or a mid-leve, like a physician’s assistant, nurse practitioner, etc.

Urgent cares are notoriously poorly staffed, so I’d take what they say with a grain of salt.

Pretty sure it was a physciain

Fatoy · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
Well I was treating the pain in my left testical

OK. So we're talking mumps or whatever that's called outside the UK? And specifically we're talking the orchitis complication of that infection? Or is it something else?

If it's mumps, that shit can be incredibly nasty in adulthood. I wasn't vaccinated properly as a child - thanks, mum - and the infection spread to my right testicle when I contracted the virus at age 22. I was eventually hospitalised for a couple of days because I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't sit down, was full-on delirious to the extent that I didn't recognise my friend who took me, and I'd lost a lot of weight in a two-week period. On admission, I had a fever that had pushed my body temperature to dangerous levels.

The infection permanently scarred my right testicle to the extent that it's still tender today - and noticeably smaller than the other one.

So in short, these kinds of viral infections can fuck you up - physically and mentally. I'd suggest you look after yourself (rest and fluids), stop driving, get a parent to help with your daughter, and wait for your blood tests to come back before you ascribe all this to something as severe as cancer.

EDIT: And stop taking opiates and marijuana while you recover. And definitely stop using them together - even when you're better.

edgefusion · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
I had a viral infection and stupidly I treat it with 60mg of codien per day for 2 days and some very strong cannabis on the 2nd evening. Since then I've had constant deja vu, anxiety, some delusions like being convinced I can tell the future and stuff like that.

I'm a 29 year old male and I've been told that maybe it's not some cannabis induced psychosis but instead it's a brain tumour. I have a 2 year old daughter and another on the way and I'm absolutely terrified it's a tumour. I've had a urgent care doctor suggest possible tumour and a GP say he doesn't think it is but running some bloods. I'm terrified I have a tumour and no one will catch it or something will happen even if they do.

I'm sitting here waiting to pick my daughter from preschool and I'm scared shirtless but writing it down helps.

I don't have other tumour symptoms no seizures or headaches or numbness I do a little fatigue and I'm tired but I think my brain is just in overdrive.
I've had ADHD as a child but it's controlled now by force of will basically. I may have grown out of it.

Faced with the options I'm much less scared of mental illness than a tumour tbh

I just don't know what to do anymore.

What you're describing sounds like an adverse reaction to the strong weed you smoked, furthermore it was wildly inappropriate for the urgent care doctor to out of hand suggest it's a brain tumour. Wait for your bloods and follow-up if needed, but please try to relax. It's very unlikely you have a tumour.

Deleted member 4247 · Oct 14, 2019

Given that it started exactly after you heavily drugged yourself I'm gonna say everything points to it being a completely unrelated brain tumor.

(No.)

Untzillatx · Oct 14, 2019

Why would you smoke/ingest strong weed if you were on medication or why would you even start medicating if you had drugs still on your system?

You seem still under the effects of that combo, I think the GP made the right decision. Wait until it passes.

wollywinka · Oct 14, 2019

It could be a brain tumour but it’s very unlikely. You said that you have ADHD. You’re not bipolar by any chance?

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

wollywinka said:
It could be a brain tumour but it’s very unlikely. You said that you have ADHD. You’re not bipolar by any chance?

Don't know

Fatoy · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
Don't know

Honestly, it sounds like you have a pretty callous disregard for / disinterest in your health - so maybe this is the kind of wake-up call you need to look after yourself a little better.

wollywinka · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
Don't know

I would maybe wait a day or two, see if things subside. However if the delusions persist or you feel you are a danger to yourself, your kid(s) or anyone else, please seek medical attention.

DarknessTear · Oct 14, 2019

Not sure why an urgent care doctor would even try to tell you something like that. That's just as bad as the time I was diagnosed with MS but the doctor said "We found something wrong with your brain" and then left me in the room to my thoughts for hours.

Wait until you get some tests done to feel dread about this. I seriously doubt an urgent care doctor can diagnose something like this without some real testing. Plenty of things can cause the symptoms mentioned.

Euphoria · Oct 14, 2019

Weed can cause increased anxiety levels and anxiety can cause all sorts of symptoms.

My guess is that everything you’re feeling is because of the drugs and now the anxiety continues and it’s causing all these problems for you.

Source: It’s happened to me before.

Fliesen · Oct 14, 2019

edgefusion said:
What you're describing sounds like an adverse reaction to the strong weed you smoked, furthermore it was wildly inappropriate for the urgent care doctor to out of hand suggest it's a brain tumour. Wait for your bloods and follow-up if needed, but please try to relax. It's very unlikely you have a tumour.

Like, do we know how they put it, though?

There's "lol, might be a tumor"

and then there's "it's best if we do a thorough diagnosis, because as of right now, we don't really know the cause, yet we cannot really rule out anything" - "like, do you think it might be cancer?!??!?! like a brain tumour??!??!?!" - "well ... theoretically, that might show similar symptoms. But again, first we'll have to do some testing."

There's people who would, in a drug / optiate induced hypochondria, condense the 2nd conversation as "doctor told me i might have cancer".

Deleted member 31133 · Oct 14, 2019

It could be a tumor, but you're not going to know for sure until tests are completed. A tumor is also not a death sentence. If there is a tumor, it could be benign (non-cancerous). I would expect other symptoms, such as a crushing headache if it was a tumor. My friend has a benign brain tumor and she suffers from headaches from hell.

Viral infections can cause mental health issues, especially if the infection is on the brain, such as Encephalitis.

I'm no expert, but the weed wouldn't have helped the situation at all. Probably best you continue to lay off the weed, try to relax and wait for a professional diagnosis.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Fliesen said:
Like, do we know how they put it, though?

There's "lol, might be a tumor"

and then there's "it's best if we do a thorough diagnosis, because as of right now, we don't really know the cause, yet we cannot really rule out anything" - "like, do you think it might be cancer?!??!?! like a brain tumour??!??!?!" - "well ... theoretically, that might show similar symptoms. But again, first we'll have to do some testing."

There's people who would, in a drug / optiate induced hypochondria, condense the 2nd conversation as "doctor told me i might have cancer".

The exact conversation was "I want you to tell your gp cause it could be a tumour and he will sort out a brain scan" so I told the gp and instead he took bloods

SABO. · Oct 14, 2019

Sounds like the mix of drugs triggered some of your mental intricacies.

Mix that in with a doc suggesting a tumour and you're in for a hell of a ride.

I think you need rest and a lot of tea

Fatoy · Oct 14, 2019

Seriously, what is the viral infection?

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

Fatoy said:
Seriously, what is the viral infection?

Unknown. I had a chickenpox like face rash and a infectedeft testical

Oyashiro-Sama · Oct 14, 2019

Go to a doctor.

angelgrievous · Oct 14, 2019

Please please please go to a hospital and don't take the word of someone from an Urgent Care, it sounds like the typical get em in and get em out I've seen a dozen times.

and please take some time off the drugs. I don't think they are helping.

Joe Shlabotnik · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
The exact conversation was "I want you to tell your gp cause it could be a tumour and he will sort out a brain scan" so I told the gp and instead he took bloods

That just sounds like Extreme Ass-Covering from an urgent care clinician. Certainly with the way you’ve been feeling you should see your GP immediately and sort it out. But I would legit be more concerned that the virus fucked you up than it somehow being symptomatic of a tumor.

Fatoy · Oct 14, 2019

Stalker said:
Unknown. I had a chickenpox like face rash and a infectedeft testical

There's a very small number of viruses that cause orchitis (testicular inflammation), and a lot more bacterial causes. If I were you, I'd be trying to figure out the cause of this stuff rather than worrying about a brain tumour - viral infections can be self-limiting, but if it's bacterial you might need help fighting it off.

EDIT: And as I mentioned earlier, if it's mumps you could easily be running a fever that could account for your psychological symptoms.

BobbeMalle · Oct 14, 2019

If there is even the slightest possibility of tumour, he did the right thing by pushing to do all the tests necessary. I know it's hard, but don't freak out since it leads to terrible choices; we have a saying here that says "don't bandage your head before it's broken" and you should follow it as much as you can.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

I wish I could go to the hospital and get it sorted but I don't know how I need a GP to refer me and they won't until the blood results come back.

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

I freaked out rang 999 and now I'm in an urgent care waiting room. Dunno why I'm updating you guys it's just to act as a distraction

Stalker · Oct 14, 2019

There's no stopping the feeling that everything I'm doing or is happening has happened before. I'm scared

Br3wnor · Oct 14, 2019

I would see a psychiatrist honestly, cannabis induced psychosis is an actual thing and you’re having symptoms well past the weed wearing off.

Do you have any family history of schizophrenia or bipolar disorder?

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