I understand the consequences. I'm well read on nutrition, I have spent long stretches of my life either lifting or running or both. I've been 185 lbs, then I've been 155 lbs. I'm going to hit 185 again soon. I don't fit in most of my clothes anymore.
But I can't stop eating. I'm constantly losing my mind over the news, I hate my body more with each passing day, I hate being looked at or touched. But I make too many sandwiches. Eat too many veggie straws and fritos and chocolate covered pretzels and chocolate chip muffins and cookies of all kinds. I eat and eat and eat and I can't stop. I binge myself to the point of pain near-daily.
I know I could probably classify it as an eating disorder, but my health insurance won't get me quality therapy for this. I've tried. So I wonder if there's one crazy trick that will get my bad habits under control that doctors hate or whatever.
Some info:
- I only drink water so liquid calories are not a problem.
- I eat when I'm bored or up late, especially watching videos or shows at my desk.
- My sleep is erratic and my stress over my own image doesn't help.
- I can cook but doing tons of meal prep all the time can be exhausting. I can afford eating out but I'm not sure if access to fast food and restaurants is helpful.
- My eating schedule is also erratic due to my inconsistent sleep. Would love to have three predefined meals per day.
- I lift on and off, FitnessERA approved type of real workouts. I'm not super strong but I'm not weak either. Would probably look nice if I got this fat off, and I know lifting consistently would help. But again, the eating.
But I can't stop eating. I'm constantly losing my mind over the news, I hate my body more with each passing day, I hate being looked at or touched. But I make too many sandwiches. Eat too many veggie straws and fritos and chocolate covered pretzels and chocolate chip muffins and cookies of all kinds. I eat and eat and eat and I can't stop. I binge myself to the point of pain near-daily.
I know I could probably classify it as an eating disorder, but my health insurance won't get me quality therapy for this. I've tried. So I wonder if there's one crazy trick that will get my bad habits under control that doctors hate or whatever.
Some info:
- I only drink water so liquid calories are not a problem.
- I eat when I'm bored or up late, especially watching videos or shows at my desk.
- My sleep is erratic and my stress over my own image doesn't help.
- I can cook but doing tons of meal prep all the time can be exhausting. I can afford eating out but I'm not sure if access to fast food and restaurants is helpful.
- My eating schedule is also erratic due to my inconsistent sleep. Would love to have three predefined meals per day.
- I lift on and off, FitnessERA approved type of real workouts. I'm not super strong but I'm not weak either. Would probably look nice if I got this fat off, and I know lifting consistently would help. But again, the eating.