I don't remember how long it's been, maybe 5 years?
I remember I started lurking Gaf before I started lurking /v/. Back then, I was in high school, Gamer-gate was happening, and I was a bitter lonely guy who thought there may have been truth in the things they said. I've changed since then. I've grown, made some friends. I would consider myself pretty god damn politically left and progressive now.
But I still visit 4chan's /v/ board almost daily however. I no longer lurk, but often (shit)post. I don't repeat racist or sexist rhetoric that often gets spammed there, but by merely choosing to be present, I feel like I support it. I hate the place. I hate everyone who posts there. And I hate myself for visiting. It's a total shithole, and is becoming even more so due to /pol/s constantly growing presence.
I can't bring myself to leave. I've tried, 2 months is my record. Those 2 months began when I opened a spoilered picture and got greeted with CP. Only saw it for a split second, but It was burned into my mind. But the place is addicting as all hell. I got lured back by the promise of Resident Evil memes, "Just a peak " I told myself. The threads move so fast, and the memes are often sublime. I need more things to do that aren't Era and /v/ when I'm bored at home and not occupied with a video game.
Don't forget, you're there forever.
I can't shake my Era addiction either, but at least Era isn't a shithole.
I remember I started lurking Gaf before I started lurking /v/. Back then, I was in high school, Gamer-gate was happening, and I was a bitter lonely guy who thought there may have been truth in the things they said. I've changed since then. I've grown, made some friends. I would consider myself pretty god damn politically left and progressive now.
But I still visit 4chan's /v/ board almost daily however. I no longer lurk, but often (shit)post. I don't repeat racist or sexist rhetoric that often gets spammed there, but by merely choosing to be present, I feel like I support it. I hate the place. I hate everyone who posts there. And I hate myself for visiting. It's a total shithole, and is becoming even more so due to /pol/s constantly growing presence.
I can't bring myself to leave. I've tried, 2 months is my record. Those 2 months began when I opened a spoilered picture and got greeted with CP. Only saw it for a split second, but It was burned into my mind. But the place is addicting as all hell. I got lured back by the promise of Resident Evil memes, "Just a peak " I told myself. The threads move so fast, and the memes are often sublime. I need more things to do that aren't Era and /v/ when I'm bored at home and not occupied with a video game.
Don't forget, you're there forever.
I can't shake my Era addiction either, but at least Era isn't a shithole.