Yep, I think part of the issue from what you are saying is that most of what you enjoy doing is consumptive rather than creative. It doesn't have to be much but get something like Gunpla or 40K models and learn how to paint them up.
Eats up hours of time and that moment when you realised you just got good is amazing.
Eats up hours of time and that moment when you realised you just got good is amazing.