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I've been thinking about killing myself for so long and the holidays just make me think more. I've sharpened a vegetable knife so it cuts easy and I'll do it in my shower room so it's easy to clean up. I'm so tired of being in pain all the time and I'm just done. I have no friends and my wife can easily find someone else after I'm gone.
 

Aly

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Oct 27, 2017
12,103
Please don't do this. please talk to someone. Anyone. Try 1-800-273-8255 if you can.
 

Betty

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Oct 25, 2017
17,604
You'll devastate your wife and your family, not to mention whoever finds your body. Talk to someone, be it your wife or whoever, you'll find people are more than willing to help you.
 

Gyro Zeppeli

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Oct 27, 2017
5,289
Please don't.

Call the appropriate suicide hotline:

Argentina: +5402234930430
Australia: 131114
Austria: 017133374
Belgium: 106
Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05
Botswana: 3911270
Brazil: 188 for the CVV National Association
Canada: 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553 (outside Montreal)
Croatia: 014833888
Denmark: +4570201201
Egypt: 7621602
Estonia: 3726558088; in Russian 3726555688
Finland: 010 195 202
France: 0145394000
Germany: 08001810771
Holland: 09000767
Hong Kong: +852 2382 0000
Hungary: 116123
India: 8888817666
Ireland: +4408457909090
Italy: 800860022
Japan: +810352869090
Mexico: 5255102550
New Zealand: 0800543354
Norway: +4781533300
Philippines: 028969191
Poland: 5270000
Portugal: 21 854 07 40/8 . 96 898 21 50
Russia: 0078202577577
Spain: 914590050
South Africa: 0514445691
Sweden: 46317112400
Switzerland: 143
United Kingdom: 08457909090
USA: 18002738255
Veterans' Crisis Line: 1 800 273 8255/ text 838255
 

Rainy

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Oct 25, 2017
14,622
Your wife loves you and things can always start looking up. Please message me if you need to talk.
 

Silly Buck

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Oct 28, 2017
522
None of what you call life is real and emotional pain is entirely imaginary. You get to make it up, choose to make it up in a less painful way. Call the suicide hotline, don't do this.
 

Jombie

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Oct 27, 2017
10,392
It's cliche to say things will get better, but they will. Just hold on and do something to distract yourself. You could pm any of us.
 

Dullahan

Always bets on black
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Oct 25, 2017
7,410
We are all here to listen. Don't do anything stupid and talk to us. It gets better trust me.
 
Oct 27, 2017
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This may be frowned upon but I seriously think this is the best website for what you're going through:

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Redzap

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May 16, 2018
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It's hard to know how someones life has been, but think about how different life is every 5-10 years. Things that are an issue in elementary vs junior high or high school. Then in your 20's you worry about other stuff that was irrelevant back then, and things that bothered you at that time are irrelevant now. I guess that what I am trying to say is that things change over time and can definitely get better, making friends is very do-able even! Please don't do anything drastic.
 

Mcjmetroid

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Oct 28, 2017
1,843
Limerick, Ireland
I've been thinking about killing myself for so long and the holidays just make me think more. I've sharpened a vegetable knife so it cuts easy and I'll do it in my shower room so it's easy to clean up. I'm so tired of being in pain all the time and I'm just done. I have no friends and my wife can easily find someone else after I'm gone.
It can be a very sad time for year for people and it is the highest rates for suicide. Don't become a meaningless statistic.

Think about something dramatic to change your life situation.
 

Thequietone

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Oct 26, 2017
4,052
I thought the same way OP. I tried twice this year but I got on medication and started seeing a therapist and let me tell you I am glad that I failed.
 

Moose the Mooche

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Dont do it man. I have been through it as well for a long time. Search help, it helped me a lot. I know how hard it feels to wake up and go to bed with that feeling every day.
But it can get better, i know it doesnt feel possible, but it absolutely does

We are here for you.
 

Darknight34

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Apr 29, 2018
210
I don't know if you believe in God, but He loves you. Christmas for me reminds me that the struggles of life are only temporary and God has reached out to us in love.

I bet your wife loves you, and thinking she can just find someone else is not what she'll want. I don't know you, but I want you to live. I'm sure someone who married you would be even sadder. Suicide never ever helps other people, and often leads them to suicide. I have an entire side of my family that has been almost wiped out by a domino effect of suicide.. Don't do it man..it doesn't help you or anyone else!
 

Deffers

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Mar 4, 2018
2,402
Please don't. I understand how it is to be in pain and to be desperate and to do some really bad nearly life-ruining stuff because of it but life can be more than that. Please don't do this. The fact you're letting people know tells me you don't want to go. Please listen to the part of you that wants to stay.
 

GringoJB

Member
Oct 25, 2017
70
USA
My guess is that, if you're posting here, you're probably a pretty cool guy. I never browse era this late, but i'm happy that I am tonight so that we can chat if you'd like. Please reconsider... nobody wants you to do this.
 

Danstanster

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Oct 25, 2017
469
Hey it's really worth it to stick around. I've been here or very close to this moment too. You can find people, even here, I'm sure there are tons of people who would be happy to share and talk here or in person and call you their real friend.
 

Username1198

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Oct 27, 2017
8,116
Space, Man
Dude you have a wife! Better than most of us! Please talk to her! Don't kill your self. Talk to your wife

Please don't.

Call the appropriate suicide hotline:
Argentina: +5402234930430
Australia: 131114
Austria: 017133374
Belgium: 106
Bosnia & Herzegovina: 080 05 03 05
Botswana: 3911270
Brazil: 188 for the CVV National Association
Canada: 5147234000 (Montreal); 18662773553(outside Montreal)
Croatia: 014833888
Denmark: +4570201201
Egypt: 7621602
Estonia: 3726558088; in Russian 3726555688
Finland: 010 195 202
France: 0145394000
Germany: 08001810771
Holland: 09000767
Hong Kong: +852 2382 0000
Hungary: 116123
India: 8888817666
Ireland: +4408457909090
Italy: 800860022
Japan: +810352869090
Mexico: 5255102550
New Zealand: 0800543354
Norway: +4781533300
Philippines: 028969191
Poland: 5270000
Portugal: 21 854 07 40/8 . 96 898 21 50
Russia: 0078202577577
Spain: 914590050
South Africa: 0514445691
Sweden: 46317112400
Switzerland: 143
United Kingdom: 08457909090
USA: 18002738255
Veterans' Crisis Line: 1 800 273 8255/ text 838255

Please follow this advice call the number
 
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butzopower

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Oct 27, 2017
1,856
London
If you are in the northern hemisphere, the days are the shortest this time of year and you don't get as much sunlight as your body needs, and it can make you very sad for no fault of your own. Each day is getting longer with more light, see how you feel tomorrow when there's more light.
 

Guppeth

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Oct 25, 2017
15,805
Sheffield, UK
Hang in there, Sirmoogle. Talk to us, talk to your wife, call the suicide hotline. What you're feeling now will pass, and when it does you'll be glad you stuck around. I know how hard it can be just to stay alive, but you can do it.
 

Aeferis

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Oct 25, 2017
1,626
Italy
You have a wife, this proves that your life is important enough for somebody to care and that you're a good and interesting enough person that another person decided to share her life with you. And you're not alone, talk to her.
 

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please don't do this, just know that nothing is forever, other than death. what you're feeling right now isn't what you're gonna feel forever, it'll change. you're so lucky to be given a chance at life and get to experience things, robbing yourself of that chance does absolutely nothing, but if you stick with it and try to change things (either by getting help or by changing things around you if you feel like you can do that), you'll get to make the most of this once-given chance.
i have felt similar feelings, and i'm just now in tears after reading your post because i did something similar not so long ago, took a knife and went to the shower, but then i decided against it and just sat there and cried and cried over how i could even think about that. not long has passed, but i've tried to feel better and now i'm just feeling such distance from the person i was in that shower, like that wasn't even me.
you should contact your wife (or anyone else) to come and sit by you and just do something, anything, together for a few hours. if that's not an option call a hotline.
 

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Hey! You're in Wales right? Lots of us on the British isles here chum đź’–

Found these resources that might help:
  • Call the Samaritans support service anytime on 116 123 (freephone)
  • Call the PAPYRUS HOPELineUK on 01925 572444 if you are a young person (or have concerns about a young person)
  • Call the CALL Helpline (Wales) on 0800 132 737
  • Go to your nearest accident and emergency (A&E) department and tell the staff how you are feeling
  • Contact NHS Direct (Wales) on 0845 4647
  • Speak to a friend, family member or someone you trust
You clearly can tell us about your feelings but is there anyone in the real world? Let's find you someone else besides us to talk with but this chat will be here for you.
 

Feep

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Oct 25, 2017
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I'd recommend calling the relevant suicide hotline immediately. They can help, I promise. No one wants to see you do this, man, nobody.
 

hjort

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Nov 9, 2017
4,096
Please don't, Sirmoogle! Stay with us!

Call the appropriate hotline number posted previously, and keep posting here! You're not alone in this.
 
Feb 10, 2018
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I've been thinking about killing myself for so long and the holidays just make me think more. I've sharpened a vegetable knife so it cuts easy and I'll do it in my shower room so it's easy to clean up. I'm so tired of being in pain all the time and I'm just done. I have no friends and my wife can easily find someone else after I'm gone.

What pain are you having?
 

Deleted member 10847

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Hey OP, don´t do it! Call the numbers provided if you cant discuss it with your wife but please dont do that!
 

Deleted member 9838

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I know life is hard but I will say this. You absolutely can turn your life around. I literally don't care what your past is. You could of had the worst things possible done to you or you could have done them yourself but you can still always move on and find happiness. Don't give up on this life. There are still plenty of lessons to be learned.
 

JustinBailey

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Oct 25, 2017
1,596
So, I want you to imagine bright colorado sun and a hike up a mountain and how that might feel relative to what you feel now. I can promise you that there is nothing like that feeling in the world, and it feels completely different and rejuvenating. Especially in the summer. I hope the comparison will be helpful in understanding that the way you currently feel is not permanent but can be changed given different conditions. Even if your experience says otherwise.
 
Oct 25, 2017
1,659
Hull, England
Please don't hurt yourself, I don't know you but I like you, we all do, message any of us, ring the suicide prevention line, what ever you do please reach out to someone, you can get through this.
 

Danstanster

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Oct 25, 2017
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It's a hard holidays and a hard year. But people here made my week way better when I felt really low and lost. There is a home for you here and wherever you are right now. Please don't go.
 

MLH

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Oct 26, 2017
713
I've been there, I'm still struggling. Perhaps its not the best advice, but talk to a loved one, someone close to you that you trust - I won't speak with my parents because I know they would react with anger and it would become an argument with them, it's made it very difficult, but I spoke with a colleague/ friend in work and they've been great. I've found it more helpful than talking to a stranger, but I'm happy to talk if you want to PM me.
Knowing that they know and knowing that leaving would hurt them keeps me going - hurting other people is the last thing I'd want - It's clear you love your wife and want her to be happy, leaving her would certainly hurt her - it might not be the healthiest way to look at things but it keeps me going for now, so just focus on getting through today. Give yourself a little time and love.
 

Stiler

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Oct 29, 2017
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If you want someone to listen to you and talk with just shoot me a pm, there are plenty of us here who you can talk to, as well as the numbers posted that you can call.
 

Nacho Papi

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Oct 27, 2017
2,337
Don't do it man...I've been where you're at, where it feels like the notion of going on is an insurmountable task requiring every bit of energy, and at times even more than you have.

It's common, and understandable, that people urge someone in your position to think about the 'good things in life' - which might almost appear counterproductive when you then and there probably feel like no such things exists...this is where you yourself, as a unique individual, come in to play. You have to find it, find whatever reason for living you might want, something that keeps you going whether it's some monumental or extremely small in the eyes of others.

The challenge is finding that, and when you feel you can't then life feels even more bleak - but ending it will end it forever and rob you of the chance of happiness or even slightest enjoyment of life.

Small steps, life isn't a race, take your time. Try your best to find something to latch on to and if you can't find it immediately then that's fine. You might hurt, be in pain, but don't give up hope that it -can- be better. It is not impossible, just so fucking hard sometimes but when you get out of that hole, even if temporarily, you get a glimpse at what makes life worth living and you'll clutch to it like you've never have before.
 

overcast

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Oct 25, 2017
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Dude please call the hotline or talk to anybody in this thread. There are so many other options.
 
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