I owe ERA a Goodbye.

[GARlock Spiral]

Life hasn't been great for me the past few years, and it just keeps getting exponentially worse.

I've been doing a lot of self reflection, but the major factor of it, is me. I'm the common denominator in all the deficiencies of my life. I've spent the last few years trying to be more than a worthless loser, but reality says that would be overstating myself by quite a bit. There is no help available when the problem is everything you see in the mirror. I'm too far gone to even start putting myself back together into something worth a damn.

ERA, you've at least tried to help me out and that was somewhat touching. If I could feel anything, it would probably warm my heart just a bit. As such, I felt I should at least say goodbye to someone. For what it's worth, congrats. I'd say it was fun, but I don't know what that's like.

With that said, that makes this a Goodbye.

 

[ElectricBlanketFire]

No, this is not a goodbye. You're going to live tonight and tomorrow.

 

[Sonicbug]

Call 1-800-273-8255

 

[whytemyke]

I don't know what you're going through, but giving up is never the answer. Seek assistance or just a person to talk to if you're thinking of doing something damaging to yourself.

Life might not be great now, but seeking a permanent solution to an impermanent situation is never a good move.

 

[CommodoreKong]

Suicide is never the answer. Call a friend, family member or hotline.

 

[CallMeShaft]

While it's nice that you thought to say goodbye to us, don't. Don't go through with whatever you're thinking up.

If you need someone to talk shit over with, someone who themself has had a shitty life with a lot of embarrassing moments who won't judge you for anything, then hit me up via DM. Or hit up one of the other posters here. Just talk to someone about it.

 

[Nawid]

Don’t do that. Order some pizza instead, enjoy it, then make french toast pizza with the leftovers tomorrow morning.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hB42iztkzVQ

 

[Stinkles]

If you think you owe us a goodbye then we owe you some ideas and responses and suggestions so please let us return the favor and stick around and see what folks have to say.

 

[SeriousGoku]

Brother, go travel. Do you have the resources to do so? Just get out of your current environment, quickly. Don’t think about it, fuck your bills, just leave where you’re at right now and see another part of the world.

 

[TheGreatDirector]

Stay with us, OP. Talk. Just because you're in a bad place now doesn't mean your life can't turn around.

 

[Fuchsia]

This isn’t goodbye OP! We’re here for you! There is ALWAYS help and it’s never too late. Talk to us here about what’s going on. Please don’t give up.

 

[Dark Knight]

Don't do it. People love you too much. Let's rough it out together. You have a whole community here who need you to be strong. Things can improve for you.

 

[Ultimate Bear Cub]

This isn't the right answer. Call the number please. You deserve help and support. You in fact can feel because that is what you just put on the opening post. Feeling. Trust that you matter. Because you do.

 

[fossi8]

OP if you wanna chat or something send me a DM, I'll be glad to make a new friend

 

[OtakuCoder]

Don't do it!

 

[THRILLHO]

You are talking about a long term solution to a short term problem. It gets better.

 

[Nightwing123]

Life may seem hard right now but trust me it does get better over time. Pls seek out support.

 

[Filipus]

My dude, I followed your previous topic and thought about you repeatedly throughout the week. I never posted because I wasn't sure what to say since I've never been in that situation and other users kept checking on you.

But I can say this, I care about you. And I'm here to help in anyway I can. Please don't do whatever you are thinking of doing, it is not the way. Talk with someone my friend, or send me a PM and talk with me. I'm getting into an airplane soon but I will take as much time as I can for you.

Stay safe GARlock Spiral

 

[joeblackisback]

There’s a lot of us, let us help! There’s got to be one of us near you who can take your mind off things

 

[Kyrios]

Don't do it, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Plenty of people here ready to talk to you.

 

[Deleted member 864]

Life may be hard right now but it won’t be that way always, it will get better. Please seek out support, talk to someone or talk to us.

 

[Ludovico]

Please don't.
It's never too far gone, man. I know that's hard to believe sometimes, but that's what makes us human. We're resilient, and so are you. Please don't stop fighting.

 

[IDontBeatGames]

We believe in you OP, please stay with us.

 

[OrangeNova]

You can message any of us to talk, I'm sure of it. If you don't know who to message, you can message me! A goodbye isn't needed at all.

And hey, have you thought about looking if there are other Era members where you live? There are always groups of people willing to take others in to hang out, I still play pokemon and hang out with friends I made in Anime Club in college. Sometimes finding those groups just takes a while.

 

[TeddieBear]

Don’t do it!

Have you even seen the new Star Wars yet?!

I have an extra ticket (4DX baby!).

You can come along with me and we can chat after

 

[Deleted member 12379]

All I can say that there are a lot of folks here who can sympathize with the situation you feel like you're in. You wanna air something out let's talk.

 

[oreomunsta]

OP don't do anything irreversible :(

I remember the last thread that you made not long ago. You stayed with us after that one.

Stay with us again. Life happens in steps, so keep taking your steps with us

 

[ieo]

Call 1-800-273-8255

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[DjDeathCool]

I want to join the voices of people telling you to stick around and hang out with us.

We're all here for you!

 

[DFG]

Call 1-800-273-8255

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[Deleted member 2625]

I’m glad you’re still with us.

https://www.resetera.com/threads/im...-anything-more-best-way-to-end-it-all.157087/

 

[ExhaustedWalrus]

I know how it feels. I met with my therapist yesterday amid a really hard week for me. I went to bed once I got home yesterday I was so depressed. Hell, you’ve probably seen a lot of my threads worrying and complaining about my job on here. It is really hard for me mentally right now.

Butwhat you see right now is not how you’re formed. People care about you, even if you don’t think they do. This is your mine and brain playing tricks on you. You can’t let it win.

I see you have been playing Control; have you beaten it? What do you think so far? I actually haven’t really talked about it with anyone, so I’m curious.

 

[Zen]

You need professional help. Recognize it's likely chemical if it's gone on this long.

 

[JigglesBunny]

Life hasn't been great for me the past few years, and it just keeps getting exponentially worse.

I've been doing a lot of self reflection, but the major factor of it, is me. I'm the common denominator in all the deficiencies of my life. I've spent the last few years trying to be more than a worthless loser, but reality says that would be overstating myself by quite a bit. There is no help available when the problem is everything you see in the mirror. I'm too far gone to even start putting myself back together into something worth a damn.

ERA, you've at least tried to help me out and that was somewhat touching. If I could feel anything, it would probably warm my heart just a bit. As such, I felt I should at least say goodbye to someone. For what it's worth, congrats. I'd say it was fun, but I don't know what that's like.

With that said, that makes this a Goodbye.

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This line keeps me going on my darkest days...

How close is the ending? Well, nobody knows,
The future's a mystery and anything goes.
Love is confusing and life is hard,
you fight to survive 'cause you made it this far.
It's all too astounding to comprehend,
it’s just the beginning, this isn't the end.

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Please know that life never actually builds impenetrable walls around you. There is always a way to break through. You still have so much to see and do here. Stay and experience this life thing, watch as the dark turns to light and this will all seem like a bad dream after a bit of time. Things DO get better, just give the world some time to get it to you. You can and WILL survive.

For some help, please, give this number a call and talk through everything. They’re here to keep you here and you’re here for a reason. Bless you, man.

Call 1-800-273-8255

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[zon]

There is no help available when the problem is everything you see in the mirror. I'm too far gone to even start putting myself back together into something worth a damn.

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That's not true OP. You're never "too far gone". Just because you can't fix everything by yourself doesn't mean life is hopeless. We're only human. We need help to get better. I've been in therapy for 11½ years by now, I would never have been able to solve my problems on my own. It might take time to solve your problems but that doesn't mean it's impossible.

 

[Aurica]

Please, please, please don't do this. You keep living and have the opportunity to feel and to experience better things, but there's nothing left if you end it.

 

[Antrax]

Don't do what you're thinking about doing.

 

[Maximum Spider]

Don't give up. There are people who can and want to help you with whatever you're going through. You might not find the perfect remedy right away but there is a solution out there and it's definitely NOT suicide or any form of self-harm. Believe me, it gets better.

 

[KtotheRoc]

It's fine if you want to take a small break from Era, but you have to come back to us. It's okay. I know life can be difficult at times, but it's okay to reach out. I'll listen to whatever you have to say. And if you want to talk to me over the phone, I'd be perfectly happy to give you my number and let you talk to another human being. Just message me, okay?

 

[WordAssassin]

Don’t do that. Order some pizza instead, enjoy it, then make french toast pizza with the leftovers tomorrow morning.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hB42iztkzVQ

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What in the fuck

Look, OP, this right here. You're down on yourself and feeling shitty and worthless, I get it, I've been there a lot recently myself. But then you see something like this, and it's like, holy shit what. I'm not even joking right now. There's so much to see and discover and experience in life, be it french toast pizza or a misty sunrise during an early morning hike or the warm smile of a loved one you haven't even met yet. Don't throw that away!! There is always a reason to keep going, don't rob yourself of all there is life has to offer, please! We are here for you.

 

[Peltz]

You matter op. You do.

Don’t do it. Get help.

 

[MrHealthy]

You got a couple thousand dollars or equivalent in credit? Pick a country that appeals to you and has a working holiday visa you can apply for. Get said visa, bugger off to that country and start again. No one will know you there, you can do whatever, meet new friends, try new things. I did this when I was in a bad place, moved from Canada to New Zealand. Did wonders for me.

If that is not an option just move across your current country. Go literally anywhere not associated with your current life. And when you get there, shave your head or change your style in some way. Do things you don't normally do. Don't drink coffee? Start. Do drink coffee? Quit it. Stuff like that. Act like someone else and eventually you will be someone else. A new version of you.

 

[crowphoenix]

Come on, bud. Stay with us. You can get through this. I believe in you.

 

[PeakPointMatrix]

Where do you live? Maybe there's someone nearby you can share a beer with, a shoulder to cry on.

Maybe there's a shelter that needs help feeding children without food, homes. You can help. You have value. You can make change.

 

[Choppasmith]

Please don't give up OP :(

We're here for you!

 

[Mulciber]

Please don't give up, OP. Please call 1-800-273-8255.

 

[PtM]

You clearly feel something, or else you wouldn't owe anyone anything.
Too much self reflection is bad, it can warp your sense of self. Talk to someone else about it.

 

[gnomed]

Hey comeback to us. Those thoughts and situation you're in, it's only temporary. Please reach out to someone.

 

[Commedieu]

at least give us time to convince you otherwise?

 

[RustyNails]

GARlock Spiral

I say this to you. What you're feeling, it is real. But know this, it is fleeting. Do not let this fleeting moment make a terrible choice for you. When you look in the mirror, you are seeing only negative choices you made. You have a lifetime left to make positive choices.

You made mistakes, but believe me, we all did. Even Einstein, George Washington, Gandhi, etc. Everyone makes mistakes. It is basically the defining human condition - the very fact we realize that it's a mistake - that makes us human. No other organism in this solar system or even potentially this galaxy can claim that. But we do not let mistakes define us. We persist as a species. Like that saying goes, To err is human. To forgive, divine.

You are not bad person or a loser. Contrary. You are a decent person, one of the good ones out there. You belong to this community. We need you man. Please forgive yourself of anything you believe was a bad call. I promise you in the long run, you will be thankful to yourself that you did.