Just know that any amount of time without your prescription can mess with you, that it's okay to feel sad and that this result is
not unexpected. Acknowledge that and know that if you stick it out and embrace the plans you already have in place then you'll find your way out of it later. And the next time it happens you'll find your way out
again. Keep going to the gym, keep making your appointments, keep finding excuses to spend more time active and less time idle. Doing things you've never done before can sometimes be even more beneficial by giving your mind fresh things to ponder.
You mentioned friends and family and how they reacted to your hard times and how that made you feel. Acknowledge to yourself that this means you
love and
are loved. Surround yourself as much as possible with people that make your life better, and people whose lives you make better. One of the nicest things to do when you're feeling bad is to try to brighten someone else's day in the meantime. Do something nice for someone, especially those who have had a positive effect on your life. Helping someone else does more to lift your
own spirits than you might realize.
(And on the flip side, realize that it makes people feel good to help others and to feel like they have value to contribute. If someone wants to help you, don't turn them down. Let them. You're both doing each other a kindness to help and be helped.)
If you don't feel like yourself right now and feel lost about what to do with yourself, then maybe ask yourself what you think
DarkMagician would
ideally do right now as if looking at him from the outside, and do your best to be that person anyway. But don't worry about it if you fall short. You're a complicated person and not a cartoon character, you're not always going to feel like the exact same person that people expect when they look at you. That's not abnormal, don't feel like something is wrong with you if you feel that way. But sometimes it can help to try to be a person you
choose, instead of letting your confusing aimless feelings dictate what you are. That can help me stay on track sometimes while I'm waiting to figure out normal again.
As for
tonight? Well, if there's anyone around you can get out of the house with and do something low key then do it, even if it's just aimlessly driving and chilling. If not, well, sometimes it's nice to even go on a drive by yourself and make all the wrong turns on purpose to see what you find. Google has your back for when you're ready to go home. I also like to go to the pet store or dog park and watch the animals. And I like going to movies alone. It's surprisingly relaxing to see something by yourself with no other obligations to anyone. Doesn't even have to be something you're particularly excited for. Or you can go to your favorite food and dine-in, instead of to-go or drive through. Take yourself on a me-date.
If you feel self conscious about doing things alone, try to remember all the people you've noticed at the movies alone and how you felt about them. You'll realize that you didn't care and hardly noticed. It's no big deal.
