I've been thinking back on the things I've witnessed, and growing up in the place that re-ignited Black Lives Matter's relevance in the US (STL), I must say that, while a lot of news we hear of police officers being negative, that there are some officers out there that truly believe in their job of serving the public and performing their job as a servant of the public first. I'm sure you've seen videos of police officers taking off their belts, radio, etc to play basketball with the youth at the basketball court up the street, the same ones where gunshots go off at night; I've experienced that as a child, and those officers are the ones I think of whenever I look back at my police encounters.
No, I am not here to say 'Blue Lives Matter' (something that started as a counter response to Black Lives Matter in Ferguson, MO). I should have prefaced this thread with that, but I just want to share an outward experience I had as an early teenager.
It was the evening in Saint Louis, about 2008-2009, my brother was going through a stage of un-diagnosed schizo-bipolar disorder. He was manic, constantly on the streets, getting into altercations with people, just uncontrollable. An officer knocked on my parents door, I answer, with my mom and other brother tailing behind me. The officer (black) told me that him and his partner found my brother and told us that my brother was trying to find any way that he could to make them shoot him -police suicide. He flat out told my mom, my brother and I that he was NOT going to take another black man's life and he said that he deescalated with the situation with his partner and booked him for a few nights. He had no reasoning to drive back to my parent's house. He had no reason to at all. Officers are not legally obliged to contact family members of the suspected face to face.
I think back to this and reconcile. I think about what if there were two white officers, one like Darren Wilson and, one that is complacent, though knows that things need to be deescalated. My brother could be gone through suicide by cop. But I also think about how much my brother has been tortured by his own mind, his illness and how much he may have wanted to be gone during that time.
Even I've had encounters with officers and luckily they haven't ended with issue, but me and my brother have a strong belief with holding people accountable for their actions, even when they are under pressure, even if they're in a position of power. You make a mistake, you own it. If you do the right thing, own it.
He's not with us (my family) at the moment, but I miss him every day.
I'd really like to end this thread with fuck Darren Wilson.
No, I am not here to say 'Blue Lives Matter' (something that started as a counter response to Black Lives Matter in Ferguson, MO). I should have prefaced this thread with that, but I just want to share an outward experience I had as an early teenager.
It was the evening in Saint Louis, about 2008-2009, my brother was going through a stage of un-diagnosed schizo-bipolar disorder. He was manic, constantly on the streets, getting into altercations with people, just uncontrollable. An officer knocked on my parents door, I answer, with my mom and other brother tailing behind me. The officer (black) told me that him and his partner found my brother and told us that my brother was trying to find any way that he could to make them shoot him -police suicide. He flat out told my mom, my brother and I that he was NOT going to take another black man's life and he said that he deescalated with the situation with his partner and booked him for a few nights. He had no reasoning to drive back to my parent's house. He had no reason to at all. Officers are not legally obliged to contact family members of the suspected face to face.
I think back to this and reconcile. I think about what if there were two white officers, one like Darren Wilson and, one that is complacent, though knows that things need to be deescalated. My brother could be gone through suicide by cop. But I also think about how much my brother has been tortured by his own mind, his illness and how much he may have wanted to be gone during that time.
Even I've had encounters with officers and luckily they haven't ended with issue, but me and my brother have a strong belief with holding people accountable for their actions, even when they are under pressure, even if they're in a position of power. You make a mistake, you own it. If you do the right thing, own it.
He's not with us (my family) at the moment, but I miss him every day.
I'd really like to end this thread with fuck Darren Wilson.