So telling me I shouldn't try to understand / learn something because I'm not part of that culture is just cutting me off from understanding a different perspective. We as a society need to strive for the multi-culturism scenario that the crayon box philosophy / policy advances and one of the ways to that is taking in as many perspectives as possible in my opinion.
Also why are you swearing / yelling at me in your posts?
Listen here, cut all the pie-in-the-sky, we all need to hold hands and sing kumbaya bullshit. Racism isn't going to end because white people get to say the N-word. And, there is long historical context as to how and why we still use the word. I even alluded to some of it in the older thread response to you. Now, I'm too tired right now to write up a long statement that delves into the usage and meaning of the word in the community and why it still persists. And, why despite our continued usage of it we are not accepting of others outside our community of using it. There's also the simple fact that many of us are tired of justifying these basic fucking things concerning our existence. We don't want to have a discussion about "nigger/nigga" every single damn day. Do you think we run around calling each other nigga 24/7? Still, I could give you a nice real long and in-depth explanation as to it all. But, the thing is it still wouldn't matter because A) you still probably wouldn't get it and demand for more reasoning and help understanding and B) you're not black.
The second part is the real heart of the matter and not something that I or anyone can help you with. How can we describe to you the experience of being a nigger in the West? Of the daily microaggressions, the relentless onslaught of oppression, the persistent question of "not knowing" with regards to every interaction with a non-black person, the daily news cycle that beams the latest tragedy straight to our home, the appropriation without equalization, without just due, and on and on. You will NEVER fully get it, because you're not a nigga. What you can do is understand that you cannot possibly understand, to recognize your own limits. And, to then rely on others in the community when they tell you something is not okay.
You really don't need to understand any of it, you just need to comply with the one damn thing we tell everyone not to do. DON'T. SAY. THE. N-WORD. Why this needs a 2,500 word preface is beyond frustrating.
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I'll tell you what though, when I have some free time off of work, I may just give you the long response you're looking for. Then we'll see if that suffices.