You're not alone in feeling that way. There's so much insane shit going on in this world I don't know how some people can so easily block it out. It sounds like you're hitting a negative thought spiral and need to engage in something to break you out of it.
Feel free to hit me up if you need someone.
Im okay, I did something I needed to do that I haven't let myself do. I got in my car, sat in parking lot and just yelled and cried at everyone who hurts me over the years. It's kind of pathetic but like I haven't given myself the chance to just feel and talk through everything, I'm feeling alot better. I don't really do anger so letting myself just feel through things just let me exist for q moment. I'm hoping that ends my emotional flashback sprial for a bit. Sorry I've been on here so much lately complaining it's just been a hell of a rough patch.