Heart & Mind
- Oct 25, 2017
Hey BarrBarr, thank you for sharing this with us. I think that all of the feelings that you're experiencing surrounding this relationship are perfectly normal. If she's aware that you've had a bout of Psychosis before, I would imagine that she'll be a little more understanding than the regular person and that she will be supportive how she can. I'm really glad that you're going to see your GP and see about contacting with a therapist.A little over two years ago I had a bout of Psychosis. I never ended up having to stay in hospital because of it, but I did live under the delusion for months before it came to a head. Luckily here in the UK we have a good mental health service, the early intervention team really did a lot for me. I finished up my two years of therapy and medication, I have been without either for a few months now. The Psychiatrist diagnosed me with Schizoaffective disorder and GAD.
I recently started dating, and I don't know if I can handle the stress of being in a relationship. We've only been dating for a little over a month, but as soon as the first problem in the relationship happened my GAD just went haywire. I've been having intrusive thoughts that have been really effecting my mood, I have moments even days when everything is fine. Eventually though I fall back into the same brain booby traps and the cycle starts again. I like this girl, and she knows that I had a bout of Psychosis. I am afraid that my mental health is going to break us apart. If we do break up, I don't know how long it will be before I'll be able to muster the courage to date again. In some ways I feel like a person learning how to walk again, but instead of the muscles being atrophied they are overpowered and wrecking everything.
I'm going to contact my GP tomorrow and see if they can help get me in contact with a therapist, and if they think I should go back on my meds I will.
When you're dealing with anxiety, do you have any coping mechanisms that you typically rely on?
I can understand those feelings all too well Driggonny. I've definitely been in the same boat in the past where it can be hard to see a future where someone who is trans can be happy. But, it is definitely possible and I know that you'll make it there. Finding a job won't be the solution to all of your problems by any means, but it will open up a lot of paths for you that you'll be able to take and continuously improve and show the world who's boss. I really do mean this, we're here for you to help you figure out any steps that you need to take to get there too. If you're ever struggling or want to vent, we will be here always.