Sometimes, when I watch my own gameplay it's a bit disheartening to see how I actually play versus how I would want to play in my mind.
Watching good players play the game on YouTube and Twitch is cool but it often does me a disservice, a lot of great players who play patient and don't get hit by shit, are actually under a lot of pressure. They're at a tournament, surrounded by people yelling, commentators talking in the background, in public in front of an audience, and their opponent is really good and is trying to kill them, it's just a lot.
I streamed 7 hours of Tekken within two days and I was just humbled by the entire experience, a lot of the time I feel like I'm much worse than think or thought that I was, but that may be some kind of confirmation bias. Speaking on this game specifically, I hadn't played Tekken 7 online for maybe half a year. In that time I was playing offline Tekken 7 casuals and playing Tag 2 ranked on PS3. Came back to the game and had a rude awakening.
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I got bopped in a tournament about 2 weeks ago, and when I say that I think I made top 5 or top 4, probably even lower than that. After the tournament I was so tired I just immediately went home after. Tournaments are hard work, don't know how people do it.
Watching yourself play is hard. Like... really hard. Especially watching an Online match where a lot more mistakes happen. You see a situation that you KNOW how to avoid, but you haven't reacted properly or your execution was off.
I tried sharing my gameplay in the Hwoarang discord some time ago and people were giving me advice and pointers. The worst thing that someone said to me was "Don't worry, that happens to a lot of newer Hwoarang players"...
I think what really helped me is realizing that I will never be able to compete on a higher level, so I started improving at my own pace. I have a few friends who have started playing the game with T7 that are already a lot better than me. One of them even gets to top 32 in tournaments consistently.
I really like going to tournaments though. Meeting old friends, getting to know new people. I don't get very far though, so I usually don't feel tired from playing...