The "plethora of different emotions" thing is...really, really hard to take in a relateable way. This was a situation that started with the greeting "Heil Hitler." A situation you could stop contributing to.
It comes across like "On the one hand, I do think non-white people are inferior, and have an unsafe attraction to children, but I also know how it could look bad that I'm co-promoting a blacklisted site rooted in that through my job. It's all very conflicting, so it was important that I keep my cool, and continue actively doing exactly what I chose to do originally, including joking amicably about those specific topics."
