ACO coming on that stream was amazing. It warms my weary heart to see such an amazing event come together
I watch the latest few and I was in tears the entire time.I'm surprised I've seen nobody here talk about the H.Bomberguy stream this past weekend! He raised $340k for Mermaids, a UK based charity that provides support to trans youth! It was amazing, I think I'm getting a good feeling about 2019 for us.
As soon as I get the letter, really. Everything else is in place for me to make the change.That's great. Do you already know when you want make the change?
I watch the latest few and I was in tears the entire time.
Words can't describe how happy I was watching that stream.
Trans youth suffer so much and there is nothing we can do about if the parents are transphobic. It's so heartbreaking.
I frequently chat with 2 trans teens, but that's all I can do for them.
Which is why this was such an important event. Everyone should know about the shit we, but especially the very young ones, have to endure.
I'm just a girl trying her best.To be sure about being trans and being barred from the proper treatment by transphobic parents must be soul shattering.
I hope it happens less and less as time goes on and it's awesome that you are doing something to directly help.
I'm just a girl trying her best.
Anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm actually straight now. I will think about it a bit more, but if this doesn't change, I have a very serious relationship issue to say the least.
Feels like I'm betraying her after she was so supportive.
No idea how I'm supposed to find a partner half as good as her ever again.
We are now 2 straight girls in a gay relationship. Pretty sure this isn't going to work. This is the only relationship I ever had and it lasted for 3.5 years, but I guess it just isn't meant to be.Being a straight woman makes being with another woman kind of hard. But it's the same for her?
Maybe it's best to give an honest try to still make it work while being open about you being straight too?
I guess being open and honest is all that can be done. I wish there was more. Depending on how you both feel about it you can still be important parts of each others lifes even if a romantic relationship is not possible anymore.
We are now 2 straight girls in a gay relationship. Pretty sure this isn't going to work. This is the only relationship I ever had and it lasted for 3.5 years, but I guess it just isn't meant to be.
I will talk to her about it soon enough, but I want some more time to think about it (just in case) and she also isn't in a good mood.
Plus, I'm in no hurry to be single.
I feel so bad about this. She was so happy that we could see us again more frequently and now this.
Told her that this could happen some time ago and she was very understanding, so I hope we can stay friends
Still haven't talked to my gf. It was recommended to me to wait a bit longer since bisexuality can come in waves.
I also want to talk to my therapist about it first.
Tomorrow my mom will come with me to my therapist appointment and I'm going to convince her to support me.
I also going to confess that I'm on hormones for 3 months as well as my other plans.
On the posstiv side I started professional voice training and it's surprisingly fun.
Hi there. I'm a 34-year-old transwoman from the USA. I've been on HRT for about 10 months now, and I'm out in pretty much everywhere aside from work, and working on getting my identity and gender marker updated.
I tend to lurk a lot, and I generally don't talk much, but it's nice to meet all of you!
Hi there. I'm a 34-year-old transwoman from the USA. I've been on HRT for about 10 months now, and I'm out in pretty much everywhere aside from work, and working on getting my identity and gender marker updated.
I tend to lurk a lot, and I generally don't talk much, but it's nice to meet all of you!
WelcomeHi there. I'm a 34-year-old transwoman from the USA. I've been on HRT for about 10 months now, and I'm out in pretty much everywhere aside from work, and working on getting my identity and gender marker updated.
I tend to lurk a lot, and I generally don't talk much, but it's nice to meet all of you!
It was very stressful, but it went really well.I hope that appointment goes well. How did your mom react so far?
I also have been thinking about professional voice training so maybe I should give it a shot too.
Maturra Hi Maturra! I hope to see you on the discord.
It was very stressful, but it went really well.
I highly recommanded voice training if you can find someone who has experince it girls like us.
Are you my double.Hi there. I'm a 34-year-old transwoman from the USA. I've been on HRT for about 10 months now, and I'm out in pretty much everywhere aside from work, and working on getting my identity and gender marker updated.
I tend to lurk a lot, and I generally don't talk much, but it's nice to meet all of you!
After just over a year of waiting and jumping through the mandatory gatekeeping hoops, I finally picked up my first prescription of Estradiol and Cypro yesterday. Feels so good to finally get to start HRT.
Congrats!After just over a year of waiting and jumping through the mandatory gatekeeping hoops, I finally picked up my first prescription of Estradiol and Cypro yesterday. Feels so good to finally get to start HRT.
After just over a year of waiting and jumping through the mandatory gatekeeping hoops, I finally picked up my first prescription of Estradiol and Cypro yesterday. Feels so good to finally get to start HRT.
Thanks y'all! It's pretty satisfying, yeah :) I've been doing a bit of research, my endo prescribed me 50mg of cypro/daily, and it seems the consensus is that it's a bit high. However my main concern is genital function. I have no interest in SRS, I want to keep things working down there. Does a lower dose of cypro, and thus a slightly higher T level, make it more likely to keep functioning? I would assume so, yeah? This is probably a bit over everyone's pay grade, but hey, maybe someone here knows a lot!
Thanks y'all! It's pretty satisfying, yeah :) I've been doing a bit of research, my endo prescribed me 50mg of cypro/daily, and it seems the consensus is that it's a bit high. However my main concern is genital function. I have no interest in SRS, I want to keep things working down there. Does a lower dose of cypro, and thus a slightly higher T level, make it more likely to keep functioning? I would assume so, yeah? This is probably a bit over everyone's pay grade, but hey, maybe someone here knows a lot!
Congrats girl!After just over a year of waiting and jumping through the mandatory gatekeeping hoops, I finally picked up my first prescription of Estradiol and Cypro yesterday. Feels so good to finally get to start HRT.
I started with 10 now I'm down to 5,because my T level was below that of cis women. 50 a day seems very high, but maybe your default T level is just that high?Thanks y'all! It's pretty satisfying, yeah :) I've been doing a bit of research, my endo prescribed me 50mg of cypro/daily, and it seems the consensus is that it's a bit high. However my main concern is genital function. I have no interest in SRS, I want to keep things working down there. Does a lower dose of cypro, and thus a slightly higher T level, make it more likely to keep functioning? I would assume so, yeah? This is probably a bit over everyone's pay grade, but hey, maybe someone here knows a lot!
What does that mean? My endo didn't say anything about that.You probably want to substitute B12, otherwise Cypro might make you depressed.
What does that mean? My endo didn't say anything about that.
I read that 50mg is a pretty standard dose. It's the smallest dose the pills come in I think.
I'll have my first professional voice training session on Tuesday. I wonder how it will go and I am kind of excited.
The doctor I went to to get the referal for it asked me if I wanted my voice to be more masculine or feminine. Why would I want my voice to be more masculine? That wouldn't make much sense.
It's possible they've been asked to not assume, and to ask the person.
I was just a bit surprised. That doctor was not specialised or particulary versed in trans issues so I was happy I got the referal at all.
I understand. Congrats on the referal. I'd love to do vocal training, but it's out of my price range, alas.
For me it's more a time issue. As far as I am aware it's something you want to do weekly and i have to travel about 2 hours to Munich for the nearest place with experience.
Hard to pull off on a work day so I'll have to figure something out with my employer.
Ahh, yeah, that would be difficult. Good luck working things out.
Thank you. There will be a way. Worst case is that I'd have to wait while I look for a job that allows me to have the room to do this.
I'd also like to make sure that what I already did with my voice on my own is not damaging.
Hey, so I've recently begun to realise that there's a fair chance that I am transgender. I've been flip-flopping between "I just want to be a woman" and "I am a woman" these past few days and, damn, I just don't know. There has been so many times in my life where I think (I'm nowhere near qualified to say that they are) I've exhibited some form of trans behaviour or reacted to something in a way that could potentially make sense for a pre-transition trans-person, stuff like:
- Only ever wanting to play as female characters in games that give you the choice (I remember dropping Eve: Valkyria on PSVR simply because there was no way for me to change gender after I had accidentally picked the male body)
- Instantly being dismissive of any remarks from family/friends that "I'd make a good rugby player," because it reminded me of my shitty body
- Literally saying "I wish I were born a girl," to my mum (in a joking fashion during a conversation about shaving, but deep down I meant it)
- Never feeling any desire to take care of my male body
- Never wanting to look in mirrors, take selfies or have pictures taken of me
Those and so many more I can't even remember that clearly make it so that I can't deny that something is there. However I also don't feel like I 'need' to transition, and the uncertainty of it all (whether my family will accept me if I am trans, whether my 'rugby player' frame will make passing impossible, my voice...) just terrifies me.
Just... fuck, I don't know. To be perfectly honest I kinda wish that I would have had these thoughts a little later than now as they're definitely distracting me from University work lol. Sorry to put all this out here like this but I just wanted a place to vent and had nowhere else to put all this out into words.
Hi Plum
Some aspects of your story match my own but, I would recommend seeking out a qualified therapist in your area to get a formal assessment.
They will be a big help in moving forward in a number of areas, including hormones and surgeries if that is something you choose to do.
I think most trans individuals fear they won't pass but hormones are very effective and what you see now won't be what you see in 2 years. I also have wider shoulders but so do many other CIS women. A lot of passing comes down to being comfortable in your own skin.
I wish you luck on your journey
I've finally made the big step, and went full-time. I spent much of Monday just a bundle of nerves, before returning to work on Tuesday. They've already updated pretty much everything, and things are finally getting to, well... "normal." It feels great to be out everywhere now, but it still doesn't feel "real" yet.
Like... part of me still expects to be going home to change back into the old guy clothes, wash my face, and style my hair into that boring old style... but it's not happening. I'm going into work, wearing my skirt, blouse, and heels. And, well... I'm just kind of wondering when I'll wake up from all of this.
Still, I'm glad to finally be "me."
Hey, so I've recently begun to realise that there's a fair chance that I am transgender. I don't know yet, and I've been flip-flopping between "I am" and "I'm not," these past few days and, damn, I just don't know. There have been so many times in my life where I think (I'm nowhere near qualified to say that they are) I've exhibited some form of trans behaviour or reacted to something in a way that could potentially make sense for a pre-transition trans-person, stuff like:
- Only ever wanting to play as female characters in games that give you the choice (I remember dropping Eve: Valkyria on PSVR simply because there was no way for me to change gender after I had accidentally picked the male body)
- Instantly being dismissive of any remarks from family/friends that "I'd make a good rugby player," because it reminded me of my shitty body
- Literally saying "I wish I were born a girl," to my mum (in a joking fashion during a conversation about shaving, but deep down I meant it)
- Never feeling any desire to take care of my male body
- Never wanting to look in mirrors, take selfies or have pictures taken of me
Those and so many more I can't even remember that clearly make it so that I can't deny that something is there. However I also don't feel like I 'need' to transition, and the uncertainty of it all (whether my family will accept me if I am trans, whether my 'rugby player' frame will make passing impossible, my voice...) just terrifies me.
Just... fuck, I don't know. To be perfectly honest I kinda wish that I would have had these thoughts a little later than now as they're definitely distracting me from University work lol. Sorry to put all this out here like this but I just wanted a place to vent and had nowhere else to put all this out into words.
I've finally made the big step, and went full-time. I spent much of Monday just a bundle of nerves, before returning to work on Tuesday. They've already updated pretty much everything, and things are finally getting to, well... "normal." It feels great to be out everywhere now, but it still doesn't feel "real" yet.
Like... part of me still expects to be going home to change back into the old guy clothes, wash my face, and style my hair into that boring old style... but it's not happening. I'm going into work, wearing my skirt, blouse, and heels. And, well... I'm just kind of wondering when I'll wake up from all of this.
Still, I'm glad to finally be "me."
Those are all things that can be indicative of trans-ness and most of them ring true for me. That's not to say that everyone who fits some or even all of those criteria must be trans, but if you're seriously considering the possibility that you are, that in and of itself is another piece of evidence. Ultimately, it's up to you to decide if the label of trans adequately describes your experience, but I'll second the recommendation to see a therapist to be able to talk about things with. In any event, best of luck with whatever lies ahead of you! I'm glad you felt able to reach out on here; I know that bringing it up can be an intimidating prospect.
Congratulations! :D I hope that continues to go well for you.
I'm deliberately not taking any in-person classes this semester (the program has no restrictions on how many online versus in-person classes you select) since I'm still terrible at presenting, but I hope to get back on campus more regularly in the fall. I'm hopefully starting HRT next week--just waiting for the labs to get back--and I'm gonna try to look into laser hair removal for my face as that's the most dysphoric thing for me currently. I think that as those begin to have visible effects it will be easier to try other things like dressing more femininely, as opposed to the androgynous look I've been in for most of the past five or six months.
Hey, so I've recently begun to realise that there's a fair chance that I am transgender. I don't know yet, and I've been flip-flopping between "I am" and "I'm not," these past few days and, damn, I just don't know. There have been so many times in my life where I think (I'm nowhere near qualified to say that they are) I've exhibited some form of trans behaviour or reacted to something in a way that could potentially make sense for a pre-transition trans-person, stuff like:
- Only ever wanting to play as female characters in games that give you the choice (I remember dropping Eve: Valkyria on PSVR simply because there was no way for me to change gender after I had accidentally picked the male body)
- Instantly being dismissive of any remarks from family/friends that "I'd make a good rugby player," because it reminded me of my shitty body
- Literally saying "I wish I were born a girl," to my mum (in a joking fashion during a conversation about shaving, but deep down I meant it)
- Never feeling any desire to take care of my male body
- Never wanting to look in mirrors, take selfies or have pictures taken of me
Those and so many more I can't even remember that clearly make it so that I can't deny that something is there. However I also don't feel like I 'need' to transition, and the uncertainty of it all (whether my family will accept me if I am trans, whether my 'rugby player' frame will make passing impossible, my voice...) just terrifies me.
Just... fuck, I don't know. To be perfectly honest I kinda wish that I would have had these thoughts a little later than now as they're definitely distracting me from University work lol. Sorry to put all this out here like this but I just wanted a place to vent and had nowhere else to put all this out into words.