Worked through the PGW show yesterday, so this morning I decided to sit down and catch up. I'd seen a few tweets about the violence in TLOU2 trailer, and yeah, that was pretty crazy. But as a child from a physically and verbally abusive home, constantly waiting for the next drunken (also sober) outbreak from my father when he lashed out at my mother, and then later at me after she left, I've been sitting here for about half an hour after watching it, just kind of staring at my keyboard, eyes welling up, mostly just pissed, not sure what else.
Apparently even in my mid-40s now, the scars are still there. When my father died, I didn't cry in the ambulance on the way to the hospital with him, at the wake, or at the funeral. It wasn't until years later going through a bunch of boxes during a move that I came across the condolence cards from the funeral that it really hit me hard, not because I missed him, because it never did, but because I missed having a childhood that wasn't filled with fear and violence.
I haven't shed a tear about my childhood since then, until this morning, and I'm still just sitting here trying really hard to think about something else. Not sure I'll play Detroit, not sure I can play Detroit, but I've never had anything game related shake me as much as that trailer did.
Apparently even in my mid-40s now, the scars are still there. When my father died, I didn't cry in the ambulance on the way to the hospital with him, at the wake, or at the funeral. It wasn't until years later going through a bunch of boxes during a move that I came across the condolence cards from the funeral that it really hit me hard, not because I missed him, because it never did, but because I missed having a childhood that wasn't filled with fear and violence.
I haven't shed a tear about my childhood since then, until this morning, and I'm still just sitting here trying really hard to think about something else. Not sure I'll play Detroit, not sure I can play Detroit, but I've never had anything game related shake me as much as that trailer did.