I lost my job yesterday.
I forget if I mentioned this already, but I was put on a two month "improvement program" (let's call it what it is: probation) on account of some mistakes I was making. I spent the next two months diligently working to fix those improvements, and I was given bi-weekly reviews on what I was doing better and still doing wrong. By the last half, no other issues were reported other than some very minor "work on this a little more, remember to do this next time" stuff.
Even though it sounded like my boss was personally satisfied with the outcome, he had also mentioned that it would be up to HR to make the final decision, and that it would be out of his hands: he also mentioned that if I didn't hear anything by the end of Friday, then consider the case closed and that was that. Seeing how the last couple of weeks had zero issues, I put it on the back of my mind content that I had secured my job.
Sure enough, one hour left on Friday and HR came in, only gave me a vague "We feel you didn't make the sufficient improvements from the program" spiel and escorted me out.
I did not like this job. In fact, it was probably the second worst job I ever had. It may not have been physically demanding, but the notion of spending several hours a day staring at a computer monitor and not being allowed to use my phone, listen to music, read a book or anything else made me incredibly stressful. And there was no advancement opportunities either. The days off and insurance perks were great, but that didn't mean I wanted to do this job forever.
But that said, I wanted to leave on my own terms. This may have been a new record for me (2 years), but it's still another job that I was fired from because I lacked something or didn't do something correctly. I was certain I was meeting their standards in this case, so the only thing I can think of is that was my possible people skills that were the final nail in the coffin (but that's a separate issue I'd like to discuss in a separate thread).
It helps that I was already formulating a back-up plan in the event this happened: I'm officially done with government jobs and office jobs. I'm also going to stop constantly debating what career path to take and just narrow it down to IT Security. I had started looking at Maser's videos for A+ certification, so I'm going to make it a daily routine to drive to Starbucks or some other Wi-Fi joint, watch the videos, apply for openings, and other related tasks while staying away from home and personal distractions (TV, games, etc).
But I'm really worried: I have a terrible habit of abandoning ideas halfway (that's another thread!), and I still don't know if the IT field is the one where I'll both enjoy it and excel at it. By sheer coincidence, a TV commercial was playing that was basically urging people to seek out their passion in a career, not just mindlessly clock in and out to a job they don't love. But my passions come with far too many caveats: I enjoy games, but have heard that game development is a desk-sleeping soulless nightmare. I like writing, but have never found anything beyond websites that charge a pittance (or nothing, i.e. "for the exposure) for articles. I like movies, but don't think I have the acting chops to star in them. I like porn, but well...I'm shy.
I seriously don't want to envision a repeat scenario where I was unemployed for several years. I don't want to fall back into my bad habits and I really want to focus on an airtight game plan that gives me the best possible odds of finding a new (and ideally better) career sooner rather than later.
Should I seek out part-time work in the meantime, like online work-at-home opportunities? Should I focus solely on getting the A+ certification and getting into IT as fast as possible, damn the hesitation? How do I keep the motivation, and how do I also make sure I don't get another job only to get fired yet again because I wasn't putting the work I thought I was or inadvertently pissing off people I thought I had a professional relationship with?