I am followed by a special unemployment center for people with disability. I trust them enough to talk with them and they told me to practice singing theater because being too withdrawn is not attractive and lowers chance to meet a s/o
I insisted that my priority was to find a job, they told me it was not incompatible, but I feel frustrated becauei have the feeling i was not understood. Iam forcing myself to smile because they think it isbetter to smile to find a job, which i can understand, but I have the feeling to be pushed into becoming something I am not. I am confused because i see people who are confident and what people would call socialy integrated, open, but end up being very bad sentimental partners.
I know that a person can change, though there are things about yourselft that cannot change, buti am feeling pushed in a direction iI did not chose.
During a service provided by the employment center, the person tried to give me more confidence, end to provoke reactions from me. For example asking me if I was frigid, to see if I would react by protesting.He kind of gained my trust and I believed I would be helped in priority in finding a job.
Suring the transitional assessment, there were three people and I somehow felt tricked and confused. I was expecting them to talk me about finding a job, since previous traings i had followed were about jobs..
I feel the acceptable or expected reaction <would be to do that they ask, but at the same time I am feeling helpless.
I insisted that my priority was to find a job, they told me it was not incompatible, but I feel frustrated becauei have the feeling i was not understood. Iam forcing myself to smile because they think it isbetter to smile to find a job, which i can understand, but I have the feeling to be pushed into becoming something I am not. I am confused because i see people who are confident and what people would call socialy integrated, open, but end up being very bad sentimental partners.
I know that a person can change, though there are things about yourselft that cannot change, buti am feeling pushed in a direction iI did not chose.
During a service provided by the employment center, the person tried to give me more confidence, end to provoke reactions from me. For example asking me if I was frigid, to see if I would react by protesting.He kind of gained my trust and I believed I would be helped in priority in finding a job.
Suring the transitional assessment, there were three people and I somehow felt tricked and confused. I was expecting them to talk me about finding a job, since previous traings i had followed were about jobs..
I feel the acceptable or expected reaction <would be to do that they ask, but at the same time I am feeling helpless.