Some of the anecdotes in here are really getting to me. I lived that life, too. Male family members who refuse to say "I love you" or even hug another man, being pressured to not express any emotion, to hide it under aggression or facetiousness. Being cornered about any little thing I might enjoy that is too "feminine". Finding myself in situations where I have to fight my urge to suppress my sensitivity. Being around men who cannot communicate outside of one-upping other people. I'm 30 and some of my friends still react with hostility when asked to actually communicate their feelings or internal dialogue and it doesn't seem like they're ever going to change. It's weird, man. I feel y'all.
Much love
Much love