Have you ever felt a love so big, so great, so unconditional, that just knowing it existed filled you with hope everyday? That made you look forward to the future? That made you happy to wake up?
I haven't. And the only reason I know it exists for other people is because they aren't as miserable as me and the only thing that could fill the gaping void in my chest is something that big.
There's a difference between having lots of friends and having one person that you truly gel with. To be understood.
I have never felt that. Even among people that like me, I'm seen as eccentric. No one ever gets close.
I imagine that few people feel this way. Most people are either happy alone or already have other people in their life.
It's so easy. Like Breathing. but I don't have that. I could disappear and no one would notice. I could scream and no one would hear. I could die and no one would find my body. I could go a week without speaking to another person. It's not hard. I'm a ghost.
Forget being insulted. Forget people telling you how shitty you are. If you really want to hurt someone just ignore them.
maybe someday I'll wake up, and I'll be a kid again. And I'll be surrounded by people who care about me and know I exist, and want me. But all I can think about is dying alone and being forgotten. And how f****** pointless it all was.
I haven't. And the only reason I know it exists for other people is because they aren't as miserable as me and the only thing that could fill the gaping void in my chest is something that big.
There's a difference between having lots of friends and having one person that you truly gel with. To be understood.
I have never felt that. Even among people that like me, I'm seen as eccentric. No one ever gets close.
I imagine that few people feel this way. Most people are either happy alone or already have other people in their life.
It's so easy. Like Breathing. but I don't have that. I could disappear and no one would notice. I could scream and no one would hear. I could die and no one would find my body. I could go a week without speaking to another person. It's not hard. I'm a ghost.
Forget being insulted. Forget people telling you how shitty you are. If you really want to hurt someone just ignore them.
maybe someday I'll wake up, and I'll be a kid again. And I'll be surrounded by people who care about me and know I exist, and want me. But all I can think about is dying alone and being forgotten. And how f****** pointless it all was.