Heya friendos, i'm new member to era but i've been lurking since the website went up
- Your gender? Your sexual identity? (Preferred pronouns?) - Cis male (He/him)
- Your sexual orientation? - I would define myself as gay but i'm rather attracted to masculinity rather than the male gender
- Where Are You From? - Zimbabwe
- Where Do You Live? - Stockholm
- How Old Are you? - 30
- Favorite Type of Music? - Uh, i listen to either really fucking weird pop that nobody likes or 80s RnB and pop
- Profession or Career interest? - I am an onsite technician
- Favorite video game(s)? - Its say my top 3 are; Yoshi's Island, Silent Hill 2 and Shadow of the Colossus
- What are your hobbies (other than gaming)? - Parties, ice cream, cooking, working out, hanging out in the park, binging tv shows etc
Hi, everyone. Having a rough week. Just now have any touch with the outside world. locked out of my accounts because my password is too good and i can't remember them. Stuck in a mental hospital because I tried to take my life again. This is the last time though. I don't want to die anymore, I am tired of thinking someone else is worth my life, my life is the most important thing in my life. hopefully the doctors will release me tomorrow but expecting Monday. Just wanted to say that I am okay and will be okay. They are prescribing anti depressants and even before they did I decided I would never do it again. Someone has been driving me to commit suicide and i am cutting them out of my life. I also wanted to say that if anyone reading this is even thinking of doing it, don't. It's not worth it, get help like I am. See you all soon on the discord and don't worry about me, I'll be fine.
Thank you. I'm mostly better, just hard to find jobs and a new place to live. Very soul crushing, despite everything that's against me I'll keep fighting.Sorry to hear you're going through this :(. Hope you're feeling better now.
For the next 19 years I've missed out on everything. Having friends, going out, fooling around, dating, etc.. It's been that long I feel it is too late to do anything about it now. People my age will have done all of that and I feel I will be immature relationship wise because I've never lived it.
I'm not looking for advice or sympathy I just wanted to vent.
If you are young and haven't come out because it seems like the world is going to end, just do it, you don't want to live with a lifetime of regret.
I don't want to start my life when I have missed almost half of it.
I can't. I am a full time carer for my dad who had a stroke a few years ago. If I tell him and he takes it badly there is no one else to care for him.
I am trapped.
I can't. I am a full time carer for my dad who had a stroke a few years ago. If I tell him and he takes it badly there is no one else to care for him.
I am trapped.
I can't. I am a full time carer for my dad who had a stroke a few years ago. If I tell him and he takes it badly there is no one else to care for him.
I am trapped.
I think this is a good idea, TheLegendOfMart you should reach to a counselor. It is admirable that you're taking care of your father, but you need to live your own life too.TheLegendOfMart are you sure there isn't anything else holding you back? Not everyone has to want romance, but it seems that you do, and deferring to your circumstances, and circumstances that might not be as stifling as you think, will probably add to your regrets. Is there anyone you could talk to about it? The good thing about counselors is their job is to be impartial mediators. They're not obliged to tell you that things are better than they actually are, as friends might be, but they're not obligated to agree with your assessment of the situation either, and for a life problem of this size it might be really good to have access to that added perspective. Sometimes our view of our situation gets really narrow, due to our habits or whatever, and it can be hard to see out from that on our own.
That avatar.Terrified of posting this, but denial has been exhausting.
- Your gender? Your sexual identity? Female
- Your sexual orientation? Bi
- Where Are You From? Norway
- Where Do You Live? Norway
- How Old Are you? 29
- Favorite Type of Music? EDM, ASoT, rap, electronic, hip-hop, rnb, synthwave, etc etc. Almost everything!
- Favorite video game(s)? Diablo 3, The Lost Vikings, Ys Series, Overwatch, FFXIV ++
- What are your hobbies (other than gaming)? Reading, watching weird documentaries, singing, language/cultural study, movies, photography, artwork/design, music, etc.
I watched Paris is Burning but a re-enactment might be great too. Never heard of Pose until now.So, why ya'll sleepin on Pose?
https://www.resetera.com/threads/po...ew-york-from-ryan-murphy-sundays-on-fx.45460/
That avatar.
Ive been watching it. It's so good so far. Just a fantastic look at ball culture. Also, I love the cute little relationship that Damon and Ricky have so far. :)So, why ya'll sleepin on Pose?
https://www.resetera.com/threads/po...ew-york-from-ryan-murphy-sundays-on-fx.45460/
You described my feeling more thoroughly than I could when I watch Love, Simon. Stay strong, friend :)Watching Love, Simon was a mistake. By halfway I was bawling with regret.
Around age 17 my dad found softcore porn that I forgot to clear browsing history and was very weird with me and that made me completely shut down.
For the next 19 years I've missed out on everything. Having friends, going out, fooling around, dating, etc.. It's been that long I feel it is too late to do anything about it now. I don't want to start my life when I have missed almost half of it. People my age will have done all of that and I feel I will be immature relationship wise because I've never lived it.
Nashville pride is this weekend, and I'm just not feeling up for it this year. No idea why. Maybe next year.
Anyone else skip out on pride events when they usually go?
Bah - don't feel bad! Nothing wrong with not going. You even went and did a very healthy alternative, so good on ya!Never been to pride. I was gonna go this year but it was very hot and humid, and I was feeling depressed as well. I needed to go outside because I was gonna go cray so I went to the gym instead. I felt terrible, like a bad gay person for not going to pride and the gym was mostly empty (there's a lot of gay guys at the gym).
i went to the gym for my birthday. it's okay skipping pridNever been to pride. I was gonna go this year but it was very hot and humid, and I was feeling depressed as well. I needed to go outside because I was gonna go cray so I went to the gym instead. I felt terrible, like a bad gay person for not going to pride and the gym was mostly empty (there's a lot of gay guys at the gym).
I want to go to sidetrackone of my coworkers was very generous and decided to take my shift at work that was totally overlapping with the pride parade here in chicago. I haven't been in a couple years so I'm very thankful and happy to be going *sob*
No no, don't feel bad. If you're not in a good space, you don't have to go. It's alright. You did a very good alternative by going to the gym. :)Never been to pride. I was gonna go this year but it was very hot and humid, and I was feeling depressed as well. I needed to go outside because I was gonna go cray so I went to the gym instead. I felt terrible, like a bad gay person for not going to pride and the gym was mostly empty (there's a lot of gay guys at the gym).
Same. I much prefer spending the night in a place where I can actually have a decent conversation with someone without yelling lol
Thank you. I'm mostly better, just hard to find jobs and a new place to live. Very soul crushing, despite everything that's against me I'll keep fighting.
Was walking in Target and I walked by a mom and a baby and he called me daddy. Rip
Not usually what gets asked the size of, heh.one question for tall people, just out of curiosity.
are you annoyed (or upset/disappointed) when someone asks your shoe size on a dating app?
one question for tall people, just out of curiosity.
are you annoyed (or upset/disappointed) when someone asks your shoe size on a dating app?
I've never had anyone ask me that lolone question for tall people, just out of curiosity.
are you annoyed (or upset/disappointed) when someone asks your shoe size on a dating app?