I'm poly/open and pretty demisexual and I've got a major crush on my best friend. I'm seeing him go on dates and the jealousy is killing me on the inside. I want to remain friends with him and he knows I like him and he's okay with it even though he doesn't feel the same, but seeing him be with other people and not me is very hard for me. I can't help but compare myself to his dates, wonder what they have that I don't, etc and it's very toxic/distracting for me. I don't want to lose the friendship but I can hardly take being so close to him and yet being so far from what I wish the relationship could be. He would date me if it wasn't for me being already in a relationship (again I'm poly) and the other guys he's with seem similar to me which makes it hard to understand why he doesn't like me and it's just torturing me.
Anyone else been in these shoes? How did you get over or resolve it?
Anyone else been in these shoes? How did you get over or resolve it?