I started following Etika on YouTube in 2014 looking for different Nintendo related channels. He was always such a joy to watch for me. When he had his breakdown last year I was really concerned. I wish I could have helped. Hearing the language he was using I just wish I could have been there. That feeling of absolute despair is something you need to be helped out of. You can't do it on your own.
What a fucking trip it has been watching some of the reactions to him in previous threads on here.
Listen to those who need help with their mental health. Be supportive. Understand that different people inherently struggle with different things and may express pain differently than you do.
I was up way past when I should have been listening to the news livestream. First thing I checked when I woke up before coming to work.
I don't know how to express how much his content has meant to me over the years. Very few people I know IRL care about gaming. This is really one of my only outlets to talk about it.
Etika and his content and a lot of the creators that were big around 2014-2018; I'll never forget any of them.
Rest in peace Etika and I'll miss you, man. Even if it doesn't make sense or seems stupid since I never met you, I'll miss you. Your infectious positivity and humor is something I hope to be able to spread to others.
Even if you're not suicidal: if you're in any sort of crisis, Crisis Support Services of Nevada is a good resource that is free for anyone to use:
https://cssnv.org/
It's helpful to seek help before it gets to the point where you can't even bring yourself to cry and everything just internally builds upon itself.
Even if it is to total strangers -- post on here and ask for help if you have to.
Etika -- I always love your content. I'll say it again, I'm going to miss you.