Can't sleep tonight. Just thinking about all the shit in my life (don't come in here saying other people have it worse. I know that already).
My parents have always helped my brothers out more than me. One they even lent 50k for a house loan right out of college so he could build equity. When I asked for help to do the same they said no.
I got better grades than him in school and tried harder. Got scholarships and worked while going to school while he took out a student loan that my parents helped pay back. When my dad died. He got my father's car (I got his watch). He makes a lot more money then me now and owns two homes because they helped him. I'm still unemployed and hate my fucking situation to no end.
After my father died. My mother gave a car I really liked and had asked to have when I came back from China (cheap Ford fiesta) to my druggy sister that totaled it.
Maybe I'm sounding selfish but I feel like I got the rawest fucking deal in my family. Oh and my mom bought like three trailers for her new boyfriend and like 10 cars that he's supposed to fix up and sell. Meanwhile the help I get is to move back in with them while I look for a job. Which I'm grateful for, mind you, but the house is infested with roaches and not finished. Like water pipes busted and other shit.
Like I said. I know I've got it better then many out there but I feel like I should be able to get the same help they have my older brother. I know being resentful isn't good for me but why do I get all the trash in the family when I did the most work?
Anyways. Make fun of me as much as you want. That seems all I'm good for.
My parents have always helped my brothers out more than me. One they even lent 50k for a house loan right out of college so he could build equity. When I asked for help to do the same they said no.
I got better grades than him in school and tried harder. Got scholarships and worked while going to school while he took out a student loan that my parents helped pay back. When my dad died. He got my father's car (I got his watch). He makes a lot more money then me now and owns two homes because they helped him. I'm still unemployed and hate my fucking situation to no end.
After my father died. My mother gave a car I really liked and had asked to have when I came back from China (cheap Ford fiesta) to my druggy sister that totaled it.
Maybe I'm sounding selfish but I feel like I got the rawest fucking deal in my family. Oh and my mom bought like three trailers for her new boyfriend and like 10 cars that he's supposed to fix up and sell. Meanwhile the help I get is to move back in with them while I look for a job. Which I'm grateful for, mind you, but the house is infested with roaches and not finished. Like water pipes busted and other shit.
Like I said. I know I've got it better then many out there but I feel like I should be able to get the same help they have my older brother. I know being resentful isn't good for me but why do I get all the trash in the family when I did the most work?
Anyways. Make fun of me as much as you want. That seems all I'm good for.