If I'm honest with myself, I'm starting to feel depressed. I don't know how many jobs I've applied for since I left my job in October. I don't think it would be an exaggeration to say 30-35.
I tweak my resume a little bit for each application, and write cover letters for most of them. I've applied for seven different positions at my dream company -- anything that is at all writing / editing related. I've received six rejection emails cumulatively from all of my apps to all of the companies, and silence from the rest.
The silence feels the worst. Like, I keep putting myself out there, with years of professional writing experience and managing editor experience, and for some reason it's not good enough for anyone. I feel like my resume is neat and well organized, and I have great references. I've tried connecting to recruiters from the companies I want to work for on LinkedIn and sending them very short and polite introductory messages, but nothing. Nothing, nothing, from everywhere nothing. I just feel ignored, and shut out and, well, rejected.
For weeks I could write it off as hiring managers wrapping up for the holidays, but now it's starting to take its toll. I feel oddly ashamed and guilty for not having another job yet. I sit inside all day and do freelance work for chump change, and continue to look for jobs, and I just feel miserable. Lately, I find I don't even feel like getting romantic with my wife.
I know y'all can't fix it. Just needed to vent again, and I don't want to show this side of myself to my wife, so I've been feeling pretty alone.
I tweak my resume a little bit for each application, and write cover letters for most of them. I've applied for seven different positions at my dream company -- anything that is at all writing / editing related. I've received six rejection emails cumulatively from all of my apps to all of the companies, and silence from the rest.
The silence feels the worst. Like, I keep putting myself out there, with years of professional writing experience and managing editor experience, and for some reason it's not good enough for anyone. I feel like my resume is neat and well organized, and I have great references. I've tried connecting to recruiters from the companies I want to work for on LinkedIn and sending them very short and polite introductory messages, but nothing. Nothing, nothing, from everywhere nothing. I just feel ignored, and shut out and, well, rejected.
For weeks I could write it off as hiring managers wrapping up for the holidays, but now it's starting to take its toll. I feel oddly ashamed and guilty for not having another job yet. I sit inside all day and do freelance work for chump change, and continue to look for jobs, and I just feel miserable. Lately, I find I don't even feel like getting romantic with my wife.
I know y'all can't fix it. Just needed to vent again, and I don't want to show this side of myself to my wife, so I've been feeling pretty alone.