Dude, if she agreed to meet up again, how about you wait until her hand is recovered to find out when you'll be seeing her. You have this anxiety that in a few days if you two don't see each other she'll suddenly get bored of you and dump you? Jumping to conclusions and letting your insecurities get the best of you.
I get this, boy oh boy do I understand this- and get it myself. And this advice is on the money.
Things are going well with the girl im seeing I think. Shes away on holiday for a few days, but has spent a lot of the time texting me, sending pictures etc. I'm not 100% when im seeing her again, I think Sunday, hopefully sooner tbh.
She rang me on a video call a night or two ago, had a great long chat. She said she thinks the world of me already, and although she was embarrassed to say it after 3 dates, she said she was missing me, and wished I was there with her. She's even mentioning us having a getaway of our own next month, and has sent me a few ideas. She text me last night saying she was out with pals, but wished she was with me watching telly with the cat.
Things are going so well, although they are going fast- im happy, because we both seem to feel a connection that ive certainly never felt before, even in a 10 year relationship. She mentioned some fears, saying that she thought I was too good to be true, or that she would let her guard down and once ive won her over completely, it would all be temporary. Thats definitely not how im feeling, at all.
BUT the above post resonates with me. Sometimes I read a text, or shes a bit more curt because shes busy or whatever- and it can trigger an anxiety in me, thinking that its all going to come crumbling down- even though theres no basis for that. Whatsapp is the worst for it too, because you can see when someones been online, or read and not replied etc. My friend told me before that its because I like her so much im feeling insecure and that I require constant reassurance. I dont think im like that, not usually at least. I just think after my last relationship blew up in my face unexpectedly, im a little bit nervous about liking someone so much and dont want it to happen again, and for that hurt to return I guess.
Im slowly but surely learning to chill the F out. Theres no reason for things to go south, unless my actions make that happen.